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Main / Re: New person finally ready to grieve...
« on: February 07, 2012, 01:15:37 PM »
((((((((((((((((( DOUG ))))))))))))))))))

Have read ur story.First of all i am truly sorry for ur Dad and brother Stevie xxxxxx
I am just posting to let you know that your last post made me smile.Its the bit about your Dad always being 57 and your brother always being 22 in ur mind I have been thinking that all day about my Davie.He will always be 47 to me.I have always said I would like to live til my seventies but today i realised if i do when i do die n go to "heaven??" he will be my TOYBOY (lol)
It may be random but its helped me smile today

Spouse, Partner Loss / Re: Introduction
« on: February 07, 2012, 12:53:21 PM »

I am sorry for the loss if your husband xxx

I know in the last 3 months i have had to deal with people(both friends and family) opening their mouths and not thinking before they speak.I am trying to not be too harsh on them, they just dont understand my situation.
I tried Bobs suggestion of a grief letter and i have found it works.It lets people see what you are really feeling and you can tell then what you want and need from them at this point in time.
                  love n hugs

Spouse, Partner Loss / Re: Message in a bottle
« on: February 04, 2012, 04:08:59 PM »

Me and my kids have been doing something similar.A balloon every Saturday with messages written on it from us all.It was the kids who thought of it and it always makes them smile particularly when its windy and the balloon floats off high into sky.At christmas n New Year we used chinese lanterns with messages  for Davie (poor guy he'll be getting fed up with all the reading hes got to do nowadays lol).It was a beautiful sight to watch the lanterns light up the sky.Made me sad but happy at the same time.
     Thanks for sharing


Spouse, Partner Loss / Re: I MISS YOU DAVIE
« on: February 03, 2012, 03:44:32 AM »

Knowing they are still with us helps so much.People told me he was still here just didnt feel it.Glad i can now!!!!!!!!
Im glad remembering Tone's smile makes you smile.
Cheeky smiles are so infectious

         HUGE hugs


Spouse, Partner Loss / Re: Inquest
« on: February 03, 2012, 03:34:50 AM »

Just read about the new job
Sorry it is late but GOOD LUCK


Spouse, Partner Loss / Re: birthday
« on: February 03, 2012, 03:29:20 AM »
(((((((((((((((( JASON )))))))))))))))))))
It is going to be another tough day for you and your son.I love Lisa's idea though.Have a day where you do whatever he wants.It will  do you both good.
 I know how hard it is to have  deal with children when we are so wrapped up in our own pain.Some days i dont even talk to mine i am ashamed to say.
Wishing your son a happy birthday xxx

Spouse, Partner Loss / Re: I MISS YOU DAVIE
« on: February 01, 2012, 05:17:35 PM »
   (((((((((((((((( SONYA ))))))))))))))))))
When this blanket is done (it will probably take me about 2 years) I'll be so proud of it I'll show it to the entire world

Anyway I have been in an OK place since Sunday morning but it is starting to go away now and I am really not wanting it too.On saturdy night I had a dream about Davie and it felt so real at the time.It was so nice to hear his voice n his laugh again.I even saw his cheeky smile(god i love his smile).When i woke on Sunday n realised it was just a dream it didnt matter cos it just made me feel good that i had "seen" him again.In the dream he told me he hadnt left me n that he was still here( and with his cheeky smile he then said,"I cant be bothered being anywhere else anyway)  I have felt like he is somehow with me since n its been kinda nice.I thought I'd post this so i can re read it if and when this OK feeling does decide to leave me.
  Thanks for listening


Spouse, Partner Loss / Re: tired
« on: February 01, 2012, 04:26:48 PM »
I know exactly what you mean and where you r coming from.I have been in an ok place since Sunday but can feel the loneliness seeping in again.Im trying not to let it in.
Im tired of all of it.If it wasnt for my kids i would just like to crawl into a hole and die.Im tired of missing him,tired of forcing myself to get thro another day,tired of being on my own.
Still trying to hold on to my ok place but im kinda tired of  having to need to
       ((((((((((((( JASON )))))))))))))))
       ((((((((((((( KEVIN )))))))))))))))

       ((((((((((((( LISA ))))))))))))))



Spouse, Partner Loss / Re: WHEN WILL IT STOP
« on: February 01, 2012, 01:30:57 AM »
(((((((((((((((((((((( LISA ))))))))))))))))))))))))

I wish i could offer u advice but i dont have a clue on this one Thinking of you and hoping you get a decent nights sleep.

          love n hugs

Spouse, Partner Loss / Re: bad husband
« on: January 30, 2012, 01:52:29 PM »

I am in a good place today.Hope you are too.You deserve to be
        HUGE HUGS


Spouse, Partner Loss / Re: Coming home
« on: January 30, 2012, 01:47:43 PM »

Im in FIFE.Definetly no cheesecake factories here but LOADS of pubs.

Spouse, Partner Loss / Re: I MISS YOU DAVIE
« on: January 30, 2012, 01:45:27 PM »

Feeling "up" today Hope you are in as good a place as you can be too.
As for my blanket.........well lets just say as i am in a good place it is coming on WELL(more like a huge cushion at the moment but one day it will be a blanket)


Spouse, Partner Loss / Re: Coming home
« on: January 29, 2012, 06:07:37 AM »

Sounds to me like your day out was a huge success and did you all a huge amount of good.L hope everyone manages to get together soon Unfortunately i am half a world away from all of u(sob) but Id definetly b there in spirit.If any of u ever come near Scotland let me know.You would ALL b more than welcome

Spouse, Partner Loss / Re: bad husband
« on: January 29, 2012, 05:01:43 AM »

I have just read what u have written.Jason NONE OF THIS IS YOUR FAULT.
Noone not even your wife would have blamed you for feeling frustrated n angry with your life at the time.You were n still are only human.Your wife knew you loved her she knew you were doing your very best.All relationships have ups and downs but thro it all u were there for her.
You were not a Bad Husband you were The Best Husband and i know your wife would agree with me on that one.Your wife DIDNOT deserve better than u.You r AMAZING (another thing i know she would agree with me on.)
You are mentally emotionally and phsically drained so stop punishing yourself.You need to put yourself first.You deserve that.I know it is easier said than done but please STOP beating urself up.
I am not and never have been religious but for the first time inmy life i am gonna say a pray for you and i truly hope it will bring at least some peace to you.You deserve that Jason.
I hope i have said nothing to upset or offend you(if i have then heartfelt apologies)  I tend to open my mouth n put my foot right in it.If i have done that please know that was not my intentions
I wish with all my heart that i could take your pain away Jason


Spouse, Partner Loss / Re: I MISS YOU DAVIE
« on: January 28, 2012, 04:56:23 PM »
         ((((((((((( TERRY  )))))))))))))

I read your reply today and i am glad i did.After reading it I sobbed and sobbed for about half an hour.Thankyou cos I havent been able to cry for about a week now .I knew the tears were there but I just couldnt let them out.
   It was the "know that your great pain is fuelled by the great love you felt for Davie" that hit home.
   I have never thought of any of this that way before.Whenever i feel down i am going to come back and read and re-read those words.You are an inspiration.
                       THANKYOU XXXX

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