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« on: January 06, 2007, 06:41:44 PM »
I just want to know he is okay, that is all I want to know that my son is okay

I miss him so much

Jeffrey's mom

Child Loss / I sit here and wait
« on: January 06, 2007, 04:45:53 PM »
I sit here and wait

I read all of you posts and I see and hear your kids dieing everyday

those whom have died in accidents I understand

I was called at 7:30 pm that an acident happen, do not remeber going there but oh so remeber coming back, My son Jeffrey was all brokern nothing that I could have done would have changed things,,,,
my beautiful son broken beyond repair

I remeber that night forever and that night has relived it selelf every night I go to sleep

why I do not sleep any more why life has taken away my life my joy

I want him to come home, I wwant to make him feel no pain, I want my son home so badly

I love him and miss him so much it has consumed me

Please I just want to know he is okay

that he is not cold, hungry,a mom thing

Jeffrey I miss you so much
Always waiting for you to come home

Jeffrey's Mom

Child Loss / Re: Birthdays & Angel Days
« on: January 06, 2007, 03:09:49 PM »
Jeffrey Michel Sangiovanni

Date of Bith - December 27, 1083

Taken from us and this earth - March 02, 2005

Not a day goes by when I do not miss you , so wish you would just come home

he was my life my first born , my everything

Child Loss / Dec 27 - Jeff's birthday
« on: December 26, 2006, 04:59:47 PM »
My Dearest Son

Tomorrow you would have (still so hate using passed tense)turned 23,

You would have been in University , telling your brother Jon, what to do and Jenn (his younger sister) to get her act together,

you would have been having a field day with BUSH and HARPER

Jeffrey where ever you are I love you and miss you

To this day I would give up my life, my soul(if we have one) everything to have you back

Tu mes manques

Je T'amie mon garcon

I am thinking of you on your heavenly birthday, took everthing in this world to save you coming into this world, and it took you away,

Mom loves you Jeffrey, somehow I wish you would just come home

Jeff's Mom

Child Loss / Re: New to site -- and new to this club :(
« on: December 11, 2006, 12:39:38 PM »
Dear Lori,

I am so sorry for the loss of your beloved son Alex. This journey is one that we walk alone, when you lose your child your whole world is turned upside down, inside out.

You will find a place here where comfort and support will help you walk this road, it is not an easy one, there are days when you will cry, scream, and constantly ask why.

I wish I knew why, as I am still searching for the very same answer.

I lost my eldest child Jeffrey in a tragic car accident, on March 2, 2005 both him and his first girlfriend were pronounced dead at the scene. Jeffrey was 21 and Tanya was 18.

There is not a day that goes by that I wish I would have made him stay home instead of going to his girlfriend's house, they were killed one mile from her home.

I would say the journey gets easier, but for me it has not, but I do have this board and they listen and believe me they care.

In my thoughts

Kyme Jeffrey's mom

Child Loss / Re: Wel I went to work today
« on: December 08, 2006, 04:58:30 PM »
Hi Louise

5 days after Jeff and† Tanya passed I went back to work, I had no choice, had no idea what to do, I know now I pay for it

but you take one step at a time, you will have great days and really bad days, but for some reason we make it

Still trying

Kyme "Jeffrey's Mom"

Child Loss / Re: freedom to express POLL
« on: December 07, 2006, 04:01:36 PM »
unfortunaltely all of society , weither they walk in our shoes or don't will judge.

mankind, has this thing I hurt more!!!, we for some can relate, for others for some reason some people just can not just back away and say heh! she/he hurts they are lassing out.

I have lived it, because I did not bend to authority when I should have, because my pain was so great that day, I walked out from my work, it caused me to have heart attack because of people whom did not think, hummmm maybe she is having a bad day with her son being killed and his birthday coming up.

It is because people in all in all do not care, listen to them, hear them and walk in their shoes, yet as humans we think that our pain is ours and ours alone.

But Cherri - here you are supposed to speak you mind , to freely express your thoughts , your emotions, that is what healing is about. And yes we will all express a point or a fact that will piss someone off, that is what makes us human.

Cherri you saw someone that reminded you of your son Chris, another shock to the system, I volunteer for "dans la rue" Kids in Montreal - CANADA _ that have thousands of kids on the street, and in the winter here it ain't Texas weather we hit minus 40 celcus. I wonder day and night where their parents are, but in the meantime, I help.

If we are to survive our each and indiviual lose we must respect that each of us are going to have a bad days and that we will say things, and if people around this neighbourhood can not understand that we each will have our days, then maybe it is not a place for them to be.

But Cherri, do not dwell on this, for some of us do understand your pain and your right to speak freely.

I think Americans fought for the freedom of speech and still are.

Speak freely , frankly. and know that we are with you

A Canadian Mom on a journey with no map

"forever Jeffrey's Mom"

Child Loss / Re: Away From Home
« on: December 05, 2006, 06:00:48 PM »
love and comfort

find peace

she loved you and she will always be with you

Kyme - 'Jeffrey's mom always "

Child Loss / Re: Adam's Heavenly Anniversary
« on: December 05, 2006, 05:54:55 PM »
I am so sorry for your loss,but have awlays said some keeping the friends that loved them means more than family,

KEEP THEM CLOSE THEY Are whom knew him the best

canada it would not survive, but a mango tree, what an idea


but we are with you , and we know you pain

wishing you easier days

Kyme " jeffrey's Mom forever"

Child Loss / Re: Question Of the Week-Getting to Know Them
« on: December 05, 2006, 11:54:19 AM »
1)† †Your son/daughter' s name
† † † †Jeffrey Michel Sangiovanni

2)† †His/Her mom and/or dad's name
† † † †Kyme
3)† †Month of his/her birth, and age at his/her death
† † † †December 27th 1986, Jeffrey was 21 when he was tragically killed

4)† †Favorite music, songs, musicians, singers
† † † †"Taken directly from his web site" - " i am a metal head, mainly death and black, but i am not a nutcase :P" "bunch of crazy europeans" He loved , admired and even met " Cradle of Filth" " In keeping with his passion for this group , he was buried in the clothes he wore constantly to reflect this passion.

5)† †Hobbies, special interests, talents
† † † †Jeffrey had a passion for Video games, he worked during one summer for† † † UbiSoft on Prince of Persia for teh XBox, his name is found in the credits.

These are taken from Jeffrey's personal website

favorite places: anywhere with friends

favorite artists: bunch of crazy europeans

his other favorite things
sports (mainly hockey and baseball),

PC hardware, software.


almost anything involving World War 2

Jeffrey had so many passions - I guess that is why when I wrote his obit I ended it by saying

He had a passion for life, lore, music and his video games.
The world has truly lost a great kid.

AND you know what the world has lost a kid that could have. would have made a difference.

6)† †Personal quirks, vices, bad habits
† † † †
† † † Jeffrey disliked - No I would have to say HATED Bigots, hated supremists

7)† †Special accomplishments, awards, honors

† † † He loved Baseball and Hockey, when he was 16 he was called to the Expo training camp to try out, but he did not finish the camp as he had gotten a little husky from to many Video game hours.
8) Foods likes and dislikes

9)† †Favorite books, movies, television shows

favorite books: LOTR, interview with a vampire, Lords of Chaos

favorite movies: LOTR trilogy, interview with a vampire, braveheart, saving private ryan

The movie Braveheart was the last movie Jeffrey and I watched together, we were both home and bored the Saturday before he passed away - he stayed home because he was working teh next day.† I will never forget sitting there on the floor in Jenn's room with my big son watching one of his all times movies on T.V.

10)† †Anything else significant about your son/daughter† † †you would like to share.
 I would love to share a poem my son had written just before he died and a paper he had written for his English teacher

Jeff and I were on the net one night and he sent me this's nothing extraordinary, it's just something he wrote and sent to me, I thought you guys might be interested in seeing it...

Hails, Canada!

These arethe flag, of blood red and white,
sauring in the wind.
so high, so fair,
my heart rests upon it.
its beauty is captivating,
the way it ripples in the wind,
sends shivers down my spine.
my land, my country, my home,
hails to my land,

Jeff's introductory paragraph
Hey everyone,
This is Jenn again...My English teacher from last semester and co-creator of this site has asked me to post the first assignment we had for her class. This of course has been approved by Jeff's mother in advance. The first class we were asked to write just a small intro paragraph about ourselves and about what our aspirations were for the course. Our English class as most of you know was Tolkien's Trilogy, hence all the references to Lord of the Rings:

Jeffrey Sangiovanni (0133358)
September 3, 2004

Introduction of Myself

I grew up in Canada (Laval, Quebec specifically) and loved the country since I was very little. I am a proud Canadian who has deep roots in this land dating back some 300 years. . . . This . . .brings me to say that I have an interest in always learning about where something came from, its root its beginning, and that is one of the reasons why I am interested in Lord of the Rings. I read the hobbit in grade six (six times), and wanted to read the Lord of the Rings to find out what is to happen after Bilbo's adventure. It took me a while to start reading LOTR due to my lack of interest (at the time) in reading. When I finally read the whole story, I wanted to learn about what happened before, and where the ideas came from. I am in the process of waiting to get the Silmarillion to learn more about the story of middle earth and its inhabitants.

The music I listen to, many bands make reference to LOTR. which helped me learn about many Scandinavian mythologies, runes (currently trying to "learn" to write Eldar Futhark) and history due to the homelands of the bands I listen to. Many of the
bands that I enjoy listening to either named themselves after an area (Gorgoroth) or a character (Shagrath, drop the h to have Shagrat, an orc ). One band that makes hidden reference in many of his songs, is a band called Burzum, Burzum meaning darkness in orcish. The man behind this band is a very controversial and well-known man in Norway, for his brutal murder of a man, and his right wing political views. He wrote his songs . . . for the "highly intelligent" to make reference to LOTR while reading his lyrics. The genre of music is black metal, a genre with a history of high controversy in Scandinavia, and parts of northern Europe.

. . . I enjoyed the movies and the books very much, and to go over the story in school is something I've always wanted. my favourite characters in LOTR are the Nazgul (specifically the Witchking of Angmar) and Sauron (in "human form"). I cannot really come up with a real reason why they are my favourite characters, but the way they are described in the story and how they looked in the movies were enough to make me feel excited to see them and read about them. It might have to do with me being fed up of having all the good guys as favourites, or the fact that these characters are a unique set of characters. Elves are also characters that I have some interest in, mainly for their use in bows and their precise "marksmenship" they are known for with the[ir] weapons.
posted by Jenn at Wednesday, March 09, 2005

and in closing the most touching eulogy one of his closest friends and fellow love of LOTR† wrote

At Jeff's service one of the people that went up to speak made a beautiful speech and ended it on a scene from LOTR. I don't believe that it is in the book but it was mentioned in the film The Return of the King...It was a conversation between Pippin and Gandalf; I took the liberty of posting it:

Pippin: I didnít think it would end this way.

Gandalf: End? No, the journey doesnít end here. Death is just another path. One that we all must take. The grey rain curtain in this world rolls back, and all turns to silver glass...and then you see it!

Pippin: What? Gandalf...see what?

Gandalf: White shores, and beyond. A far green country under a swift sunrise!

Pippin: Well, thatís not so bad.

Gandalf: No. No it isnít.

at this I broke down

and to this day it makes me cry

Jeff I forever miss you and love you more than mere words could say

Kyme "forever Jeffrey's Mom"

Child Loss / Re: sick of the holidays already (warning)
« on: December 03, 2006, 06:31:31 PM »
Agree with you all,

Once again I will not put up the tree, 2nd year without Jeff and then while everyone is enjoying boxing day sales, I will be sitting here wondering what I should be doing on Jeffrey's 23rd Birthday that he will not be celibrating.

My two remaining children I will send to their fathers for christmas, I have two weeks off, I will spend the holidays alone....and clean my house

I so wish Jeffrey was still here, nothing is the same

Kyme "Jeffrey's Mom"

Child Loss / Re: Sean's Girlfriend is struggling...advice?
« on: December 03, 2006, 06:23:18 PM »
Dear Penny

When I lost Jeffrey , we also lost his very first girlfriend with him, it was a double whammy, him being 21 and her being 18 and  having three children so close in age and they were all friends of each other , even attended College all together.

Jeffrey's closet friend was Ryan, his family are born again christian, yet he and Jeff were inseperable despite our differencies in religious belief.

After Jeff passed I would call him every week just to make sure he was okay, and then in turn I started getting phone calls from a number of his friends, it got to a point that I had a BBQ for them all. In amongst them is Ryan's new girlfriend, whom I personally feel she is a snob and she does not like nor understand my fondess for all my kids. I call them my kids because they sometimes just stop by to say hello - to me!.

I guess after feeding them all these years and having them spend entire nights playing Counter Strike and trying to sneak off to bed at 4am, thinking I didn't know, I would get up and say anyone for breakfast. ( I so miss those days)

I have never told Ryan I do not like her but invite her always.

Sometimes by surrounding ourselves with the kids that loved our kids is more refreashing than relatives.

Even though her pain will never measure up to yours, she still hurts and she did love him and may have some regrets and by keeping you close she keeps Sean closer.

As for the holidays I do understand , Jeffrey's Birthday is two days after and I hate these holidays, someone is missing and he will be forever 21, not something that is easy to live with.

Penny do what is right in your heart, do what Sean would wanted you to do.

I think I babble more than I make sense, please take care and my thoughts are with you

Kyme "forever Jeffrey's Mom"

Child Loss / Re: Photos
« on: December 02, 2006, 11:38:50 AM »

you have to resize your picture to about an aviator size about 150 x150 pixels

Kyme "Jeffrey's Mom"

Child Loss / I miss him, so very much
« on: December 02, 2006, 11:25:02 AM »
This is just not right. You should be here. I hate this holiday business. Miss you and love you with all my heart

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