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Main / Re: Lost my beloved

« on: April 07, 2010, 06:09:30 PM »

Hi Leo,  I feel like I'm choked and can't breath when I think of my boyfriend. I am bit low, today. I actually cried on my commuting train. I think the only reason keeps me going is that I don't want to leave my mother behind, thinking of the pain my boyfriend's parents sufferring.  Someday I can fake myself, but I can't handle my heavy feeling the other days. I'm sorry that I can't say anything to comfort you....


Cecila: I am very sorry for your loss. Nights were frightening for me. I kept audio books on and it helped me a little. Drop us a line when you can, and let us know how you are doing. ((((Hugs))))

ak 

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Main / Re: Overwhelmed by Sadness

« on: April 07, 2010, 05:40:28 PM »

Hello Jannie. I am vey very sorry about your loss. I also lost my boyfriend on February 16, 2010 to suicide and feel your rare pain as mine.

I'm starting to learn how to deal with my heavy feeling during my day at work or the time with my friends after 7 weeks, but I still cry and feel lost when I'm alone. Yes, it is hard and I wish I could use a magic to remove the pain and to get our loved one back for everyone. 

I know it is not the same as you have someone phycically beside you to share your pain,  but it helps me to know that there are people who also straggle to get through this difficult time, by visiting this website. So drop us a line when you can, and let us know how you are doing.

Love and Hugs,
ak

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Main / Re: Lost my beloved

« on: April 07, 2010, 01:32:38 AM »

Hi Leo, 
How are you keeping? Have you started to get some sleep?
I think that you are the only one who knows when you are ready to move on. Everyone suffers and grieve differently, right? So take your time until you feel comfortable with whatever you do. By the way, I think your wife thanked you for taking care of her garden.

ak 

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Main / Re: Is this unhealthy?

« on: April 06, 2010, 07:27:45 PM »

Hi Leo,
Yes, the memories are and will be in our mind forever. Until resently Whatever I saw reminded me of my boyfriend and I cried, but I hope that some day, both of us will be able to recall the memories with smile. Thank you, leo.

Love and (((hugs)))),
ak

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Main / Re: Is this unhealthy?

« on: April 04, 2010, 11:50:31 PM »

I thank you everyone for the messages. Knowing there are someone who don't mind hearing my feeling was a great relief to me. I try to be more paitiant and allow myself more time to grive.  Yes. One day at a time.

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Main / Re: Lost my beloved

« on: April 04, 2010, 11:33:12 PM »

Hi Leo. I am very very sorry for your loss.  I lost my boyfriend 7 weeks ago to suicide, and feel your pain like the one of mine. I also experenced sleeplessness and lost of appetite for nearly one month, and still feel that my world becomes empty and the space would never be filled after he's gone. I myself is still in the process of grieving, but would like you to know that you have many companies here for the journey of grief and healing, which all of us wish not to join.  Please take care and be kind to yourself.
Drop us a line when you can, and please do not remain sad all by yourself.

Love, 
ak

 

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Main / Is this unhealthy?

« on: April 01, 2010, 06:22:47 PM »

I'ven been experencing emotional rollercoaster since my boyfriend committed suicide six weeks ago. I think I've been through the period to keep asking myself  "why did this happen? " and" Why couldn't I stop him". I now know that he never comes back and I can't change what'd happend. Still,  I sometime feel very sad and lonely to the point that I can't be happy again without him for the rest of my life. I then try to "freeze" his memories in my mind and try not to think or get close to anything reminds me of him to carry on my life. Is this unhealthy thing to do? Is this only postponing my grief?

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Main / Re: Miss my Mom

« on: April 01, 2010, 05:56:56 PM »

Hello exforecaster. Thank you for sharing a very comforting poem with us. It sounded to me that it was a special message from your mom. I feel life would never be the same after the loss of our loved one, but  the poem made me believe that we could transform it to better one. Thank you once again for sharing.

Love,
ak

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Main / Re: Miss my Mom

« on: March 30, 2010, 05:24:51 PM »

Hi. wxforecaster. I'm very sorry to hear your loss.  I was where you were a few weeks ago, and probably am in the same pain. I lost my boyfriend to suicide, and totally understand how you miss your mom.  I also want to see my boyfriend again just to say good bye.  People said that time would ease your pain, and I couldn't believe it then. However it seems true. My days becomes easier day by day, so hang in there. I understand it's very hard time, but please at least sleep and eat for yourself. 
Love from Tokyo.
ak

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Main / Re: can't stop crying...

« on: March 29, 2010, 10:57:11 PM »

 Hello jayk2010. I lost my boyfriend to suided last month and also thought that my friends would fed up with seeing me crying. This is why I decided to visit this website
hoping to share my sorrow with someone like myself. Don't worry, I am here for you!
Love from Tokyo. 

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Main / Re: new member struggling

« on: March 29, 2010, 10:35:24 PM »

((((( Terry )))))
Thank you!! You made my day a lot easy to survive.

 

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Main / Re: new member struggling

« on: March 29, 2010, 10:19:32 PM »

Hi Reinn, I understand your feeling and pain. I lost my boyfriend to suicide 6weeks ago. I was then not sure if I could go through the next hour with the guilt that I couldn't save him, and thought of the lonelyness he must have gone through at his last moment. I now work full time and am carrying on my daily practices as before, but sudden attack of grief hits me hard from time to time. It even made me think that  the rest of my life holds no happiness and joy.  In such time, I try to encourage myself that the worst part is already over. Please be kind to youself, and do remember that you are not alone.  Love from Tokyo.