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Child Loss / Re: SENSITIVE 2 new deaths in our small small town
« on: November 01, 2009, 05:02:16 PM »
Melissa,

I am so sorry to hear about all of the recent deaths in you community, I will keep you all in my thoughts.  I hope things get better soon.

Sheila

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Child Loss / Re: New to the board
« on: November 01, 2009, 04:59:27 PM »
Barb and Dena, thanks for replying to my post.  I am so glad I joined the board.  Everyone has been so welcoming and very nice.  I wish we could have all met under better circumstances.  It is really nice there are people willing to listen to what I have to say about my son.  I will post more about him soon.

Thanks again to everyone.

Sheila

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Child Loss / Re: New to the board
« on: October 31, 2009, 09:30:52 PM »
Annie and Brenda, thanks for replying.  Thanks to you too Terry.  It is so nice to know there are people out there who understand what I am going through, however, I am also sad that there are other people that have to go through what I am going through.  I really wish noone had to go through this.  My oldest brother passed away a year and 2 weeks before Nathan, but my mom says she can't look at Nathan's pictures or anything seems like she really doesn't like to talk about him either.  She says she can't look at his picture on his tombstone either.  Nathan was like a son to her she helped me raise him for the first 9 years of his life before I met my husband.  His biological father was not in our lives, he has only seen Nathan 1 time and that was when Nathan was 2 months old.

Thanks,

Sheila

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Child Loss / Re: New to the board
« on: October 31, 2009, 05:18:38 PM »
Thanks Don for the kind words.  I see it has been a while since some of you have lost your child, I was wondering if it gets any easier as time goes by, right now it doesn't feel like it can ever get better.  A lot of people tells me as time goes by it gets easier, but I wonder if it has for some of you who have been on this journey longer.  I feel guilty at times if I find myself having a little bit of fun or if I start enjoying something.

Thanks,

Sheila

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Child Loss / Re: New to the board
« on: October 31, 2009, 08:18:05 AM »
Rebecca and Wadesmom thank you both so much for replying to my post.  It means so much to me that people are not uncomfortable with me talking about Nathan.  I wish none of us or anyone else has to go through the pain of losing a child, I believe that is the worst pain in the whole world.  I have lost my dad, grandparents, aunts and uncles, and a brother but it seems that this loss is so much harder than the others.  Thanks for keeping us in your thoughts.

Sheila

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Child Loss / Re: New to the board
« on: October 30, 2009, 08:59:24 PM »
Thanks Judy.  I am really having a tough time tonight, I never dreamed that I would have to bury my baby, it's not supposed to be that way.  I miss him so much.

Terry, GrainofSand sent me that song and it just fit how I feel and that is why I put it on the myspace page, I didn't have any music on it before I heard that song, I felt that I wanted to put it on there to share with anyone who looks at my page but hasn't heard that beautiful song.  I also looked up the lyrics and put them in a blog.

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Child Loss / Re: New to the board
« on: October 30, 2009, 07:28:08 PM »
Thank you so much Terry.  I feel like the only time I can cry anymore is when I am by myself so my mom and husband do not worry.  I cannot express in words what a wonderful child and young man Nathan was.  He never gave me any trouble at all when he was growing up.  He moved to Pennsylvania almost a year before he died.  I talked to him on the phone a few hours before he committed suicide and he seemed fine.  The last time I had seen him alive was in May, he had plane tickets to come home on Tuesday for 4 days but he committed suicide on Sunday night.  On the phone he was planning what we were going to do when he came home.  The only comfort I have is that our last words to each other were "I love you" before we hung up.  I talked to him every day if he didn't have time or feel like talking he would text me to let me know he was ok and he would call the next day.  I miss him so much it hurts.

Thanks again,

Sheila

If anyone would like to see my Myspace account which is dedicated mostly to my son the address is:  http://www.myspace.com/schittum

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Child Loss / New to the board
« on: October 30, 2009, 06:32:07 PM »
I posted the following message on the "Introducing our Children" topic and was told people might not see it so I thought I would repost here.

Hi, I am new to this board, I came across it a couple of months ago shortly after my son died.  I have come back several times and read a lot of the posts and I decided to tell you a little about my son.  Nathan was born on June 30, 1989 and took his own life on June 29, 2009 the day before his 20th birthday.  Tomorrow will be 4 months since he passed and I miss him so much it feels like I will never be happy again.  He was a very special child and young man, everyone who met him fell in love with him. The past few days has been harder than normal and I think it is because he has been on my mind more than normal.  I think about him from the time I get up until the time I go to bed.

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Child Loss / Re: Introducing Our Precious Children
« on: October 30, 2009, 06:30:27 PM »
Thank you Luvinmike.  Sometimes it feels like everyone dodges the subject of anything to do with Nathan and that everyone has forgotten what happened or wants to forget it.  There are times when I want to talk about him to someone anyone but I feel like noone wants to go there.  I know they love him as I do and are probably afraid it will make me cry but crying is needed, that is healthy.

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Child Loss / Re: Introducing Our Precious Children
« on: October 28, 2009, 08:32:20 PM »
Hi, I am new to this board, I came across it a couple of months ago shortly after my son died.  I have come back several times and read a lot of the posts and I decided to tell you a little about my son.  Nathan was born on June 30, 1989 and took his own life on June 29, 2009 the day before his 20th birthday.  Tomorrow will be 4 months since he passed and I miss him so much it feels like I will never be happy again.  He was a very special child and young man, everyone who met him fell in love with him. The past few days has been harder than normal and I think it is because he has been on my mind more than normal.  I think about him from the time I get up until the time I go to bed.

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