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Main / Uncle Phinios's birthday
« on: June 28, 2017, 11:39:56 PM »
Yesterday was hard as it was my uncle's birthday. He was very special to me and I so desperately need one of his awesome hugs. My heart aches missing him so much. He was a very Godly person. I will never forget him dying with his head in my hands and feeling his last heartbeat. It hurts so much. 
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Parent Loss / Re: My Mother's birthday
« on: January 25, 2017, 12:26:54 AM »
Thank you so much Terry. You have no idea how much of a comfort your support is. We will forever miss our mothers.
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Main / Re: Needing my uncle
« on: January 25, 2017, 12:24:39 AM »
Thank you Terry for your support.
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Main / Needing my uncle
« on: January 24, 2017, 03:24:47 AM »
Yesterday was my Uncle Phinios' angel date. I am missing him so much right now. I REALLY need a hug from him right now. I wish I could sit and talk to him about my mother. He was the absolute best uncle. I am so thankful that I have some very special memories of him and I will always cherish them. I loved him so much.
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Parent Loss / My Mother's birthday
« on: January 24, 2017, 03:14:33 AM »
Today is my mother's birthday. I am trying to stay strong but it is so hard because the pain is so bad. I miss her more than words can ever say. She was my rock and I just feel so lost. I am still not sure how to live without her. It just hurts so much. Why did she have to die?
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Main / My grandfather's birthday
« on: December 09, 2016, 07:39:13 PM »
Monday is my grandfather's birthday and I am really struggling. Seeing him laying in his casket keeps playing over and over in my mind. I remember touching his hand and wanting him to just sit up and take me in his arms. I need him so much right now. It hurts so bad. I wish the pain would go away. I need to feel his arms around me again. He was the most gentle and loving person I have ever known I loved being with him. I miss him SOOOOO much the pain is so unbearable.
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Sibling Loss / Re: Hurting so bad
« on: December 09, 2016, 06:55:36 PM »
Thank you Terry. Your support means more than you will ever know.
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Sibling Loss / Re: Jolene's Angel Date (Gail)
« on: December 09, 2016, 06:54:37 PM »
Hi Doug. Thank you.
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Sibling Loss / Re: Grandma's Angel Date (Gail)
« on: December 09, 2016, 06:53:45 PM »
Thank you so much Terry.
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Suicide Loss / Does the question WHY ever go away?
« on: October 27, 2016, 03:32:46 PM »
Do you ever stop asking "Why?" It has been a few years since my friend hung himself and I still ask WHY?. I can't help but wonder if I missed the signs that something was wrong. He seemed fine. In fact, the last time I saw him which was just hours before he ended his life, we were laughing and having fun. He seemed very happy when we said goodby to each other. But then just hours later he was gone. When I found out the next morning my heart was completely broken in two.
He helped me in ways he never realized. He took it upon himself to help me without being asked and that meant so much. He got me through a very difficult time and now I will never get to say Thank You to him. That is something I still struggle with. How do you accept not being able to do something that you want to do so badly?
He helped me in ways he never realized. He took it upon himself to help me without being asked and that meant so much. He got me through a very difficult time and now I will never get to say Thank You to him. That is something I still struggle with. How do you accept not being able to do something that you want to do so badly?
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Main / Today my grandfather and the 31st my grandmother
« on: October 26, 2016, 10:58:13 PM »
Today was my grandfather's angel date and the 31st will be my grandmother's. I adored my grandfather so much and I really need him right now. I wish he was here so I could talk to him about my mother and sister. I wish I could feel is arms around me with his comforting hugs.
My grandmother and I were so close. I will never forget when she moved to the same town where I lived. I was so excited to have her so close. When she got moved Saturdays became our day together. I would spend the day and night at her house every Saturday and she would cook fried chicken and we would play cards and dominoes. During the summer I got to spend more days with her as well. It was so hard to say goodby to her when she passed away.
My grandmother and I were so close. I will never forget when she moved to the same town where I lived. I was so excited to have her so close. When she got moved Saturdays became our day together. I would spend the day and night at her house every Saturday and she would cook fried chicken and we would play cards and dominoes. During the summer I got to spend more days with her as well. It was so hard to say goodby to her when she passed away.
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Sibling Loss / Re: Jolene's Angel Date (Gail)
« on: October 26, 2016, 10:40:16 PM »
Thank you so much Terry. Your support means and helps so much more than you know. It was a hard day but you and a couple of other friends letting me know I was thought of and that Jolene has not been forgotten helped so very much.
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Main / Re: Where is everyone from?
« on: October 06, 2016, 04:26:59 PM »
I'm from Eunice, New Mexico
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Sibling Loss / Hurting so bad
« on: October 06, 2016, 04:25:25 PM »
October is here again and so is the extreme pain. It will be 8 years on the 20th since I had to say goodbye to my precious sister. It is not getting any easier. My heart is in so much pain right now. I am so numb. I want her back SO BAD.
The 26th and 31st are the angel dates of my grandpa and grandmother. I wish my grandpa was here so I could be in his arms again. I always felt so safe and comforted in his arms.
I HATE this pain. It hurts so much I just want to scream.
The 26th and 31st are the angel dates of my grandpa and grandmother. I wish my grandpa was here so I could be in his arms again. I always felt so safe and comforted in his arms.
I HATE this pain. It hurts so much I just want to scream.
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Parent Loss / Re: ((Thinking of you, Gail))
« on: July 10, 2016, 04:47:16 PM »
Thank you so much. Appreciate it more than words can say.