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Child Loss / Re: Mitchell Chad's Angel Date - ((((( Charles )))))
« on: August 23, 2011, 12:45:53 PM »
thankyou mrs terry and mrs browneyed girl, i did get a sign i was on our porch swing and a blue butterfly flew up to me and circled around me and then fluttered off. and sad to say one of our friends/a neighbor had sugery on the day/8-14 chad passed, and he our neighbor passed away and it was just a minor surg and then he was layed to rest the day chad was on the 20th , and to top it all our neighbor's birthday was 2-18 and chads2-14 it gave me such hard memories. but i am holding, not to say my facut was leaking alot that week anyway thankyou for your kindness.
                                         my thoughts and prayers

Child Loss / Re: starting to find my way
« on: August 23, 2011, 12:31:17 PM »
hi mrs. terry and mrs browneyedgirl nick is good , growing like a weed  already in fith grade looking just like chad {his dad] .   i was almost  afrade to post this morning however it was so good to see all the people i remembered
it gave me a refreshing and warm feeling like i was home again. we are now in contact with one of chads organ recipents { lung's ] it was such a overwhelming feeling they gave us such a warm family greeting and we have talked a few times cannot weight to see them it is strange we feel as if they have been our family always. nick now sees his mother all the time now it has been good for him, i was the weak papaw and gave in to his ever call however now his mom is the displinary and i am papaw now which i think is best for him {i am such a pushover } anyway i will be back now a little more.

                                                                             my thoughts and prayers for all

Child Loss / starting to find my way
« on: August 23, 2011, 04:04:11 AM »
i pray all are well, just returning after long reflection too many bunps to list, however i am coaping. just past 4 yrs aug14. still have those days however i try turning them to sweet memories. just if anyone intestred all mine are well, have thought of you all however i had to take a brake as i was slipping into depression i did recognise it and fought tooth and nail. now i try to focus on today.

                            my prayers to all

Child Loss / Re: How to let go
« on: October 10, 2009, 04:32:17 AM »
rita i never let go although my son was buried back home thst is where he always wante to go but i keep him close in y heart.

 i only have 2 people i really can call friends. and we do talk /rather i talk and they listen sometimes i see and feel they are unconfortable so i will change the subject. however i have a very large imediant family and we talk about our chad every day, we may all be crazy but he gives us signs all the time. i know our god in heaven is real and my chad is there and happy and soon one day when our lord in heaven is ready i will johin him. my prayers to you and your sister.

Child Loss / ANGELS
« on: September 08, 2009, 11:21:42 AM »
I know sometimes people think I am crazy, however the other day I went out to sit on our porch an have my morning coffee, I felt a chill in the air and just cought a glimps of a shadow I got up and looked up and a small feather was floating down. I know it was my Chad saying hi. has anyone else had a simular experance? I mean something you can touch. I mean it could have been just a bird but I was thinking of my son Chad whejn this happend and do beleive it was him.
                          my prayers for all

Child Loss / Re: Hurting tonight
« on: September 08, 2009, 11:11:27 AM »
 I hold you close in my prayers. I know we are on this road togeather, however the thought of losing more than one child makes my heart hurt so much, I too sealed Chads cloths in a bag and once in a while I will take them out to smell and touch them, knowing my son has no more pain helps some but still I cry wishing it was all diffrent.

                                     my prayers Charles

Child Loss / well I am back
« on: August 24, 2009, 09:29:42 AM »
sorry everyone, been in hospital just got the energy to get up and log on,
i have missed you all so very muck, but now i have my rock back. i wish to thank you browneyedgirl for your nice words on my site. i too lost a brother 4 mo before my son. the 14th was my sons second angel date it has been very difficult / with my own health issues.anyway i just got the strength to get up a few min and wanted stop and say hi.

Child Loss / Re: It's been two years
« on: July 17, 2009, 01:06:56 PM »
tsoley, we to are apraching 2 years,i understand the missing and dispare. I want to cry for my son but i promised to shed no more tearsinstead i try to reflect on the time we shared my prayers for you an your fmily.


Child Loss / Re: Happy Heavenly Birthday Dougie!!!
« on: July 17, 2009, 01:01:45 PM »
Happy birthday Dougie;
send your faimly a kiss on a soft breeze witha hug as big and bright as the sun.

Child Loss / Re: My beautiful daughter is gone
« on: July 12, 2009, 04:33:06 AM »
 this road is long,without the help of this board and some profesional help I dont know how i would have survive. I know your pain is unbearable so please talk with your Dr. and try to stay busy.

                           my thoughts and prayers

Child Loss / Updated web site
« on: July 12, 2009, 04:26:32 AM »
Yes after neglecting my site so long, i finaly cleaned it up a bit. however I will be adding new things and more pictures soon, if you would like to visit the link is below, please leave a message or just a simple hello.

                         my prayers to all

Child Loss / Re: haven't posted in a while
« on: July 11, 2009, 06:15:00 AM »
  i can understand your pain and frustration. a gentleman once told me that " it all worlk out, may not be the way we like it but it will work out.

                      my prayers

Child Loss / Re: I love you all so much
« on: July 11, 2009, 06:09:00 AM »
Annie, I invisoin heaven as a place where our sole's/ spirits fly past each other in microseconds yet we visit for hours where all are brothers and sisters there is no pain only love and sweet memories of each other's lives.


Child Loss / The Next Place I Go
« on: July 09, 2009, 04:41:19 PM »
This is a repeat, I was having trouble today and had to get out my bok and read it again. It gives me hope and insperation. I recived it from A.R.O.R.A. ( Arkansas reagional Organ Recovery Agency). I pray you enjoy, if you would like a copy you can type Warren Hanson in your search engin and find his site he really has a lot of insperational books.

The Next Place

The next place that I go
will be as peaceful and familiar
as a sleepy summer Sunday
and a sweet, untroubled mind.
And yet... it wonít be anything like any place Iíve ever been
or seen... or even dreamed of in the place I leave behind.
I wonít know where Iím going and I wonít know where Iíve been, as I tumble through the always and look back toward the when. Iíll glide beyond the rainbows. Iíll drift above the sky,
Iíll fly into the wonder, without ever wondering why.
I wont remember getting there. Somehow Iíll just arrive. But Iíll know I belong there and feel much more alive than I have ever felt befor. I will be absolutely free of the things I held onto that were holding onto me. The next place I go will be so quiet and still that the whispered song of sweet belonging will rise up to fill the listening sky with joyful silence, and with unheard harmonies of music made by no one playing, like a hush upon a breeze. There will be no place for darkness in that place of living light. Where an ever-dawning morning pushes back the dying night. The very air will fill with brilliance, as the brightly shining sun and the moon and half a million stars are married into one. The next place that I go wonít really be a place at all there wont be any seasons winter, summer, spring or fall---- nor a Monday nor a Friday nor December nor July and the seconds will be standing still while hours hurry by. I will not be a boy or a girl a woman or a man Iíll simply be just, simply me. No worse or better than. My skin will not be dark or light I wonít be fat or tall the body I once lived in wonít be part of me at all.
I will finally be perfect I will be without a flaw. I will never make one more mistake, or break the smallest law. And the me that was impatient, or was angry or unkind, will simply be a memory. The me I left behind. I will travel empty handed there is not a single thing I have collected in my life that I would ever want to bring except the love of those who loved me, and the warmth of those who cared. The happiness and memories and magic we shared. Though I will know the joy of solitude... Iíll never be alone. Iíll be embraced by all the family and friends Iíve ever known. Although I might not see there faces, all our hearts will beat as one, and the circle of our spirits will shine brighter than the sun. I will cherish all the friendship I was fortunate to find, all the love and all the laughter in the place I leave behind. All these good things will go with me. They will make my spirit glow. and that light will shine forever in the next place that I go.

Written by Warren Hanson

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