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Spouse, Partner Loss / The best part of me

« on: May 03, 2011, 01:00:29 PM »

2/9/2011, 12:37 PM The biggest, best part of me was taken away from me! Now all that's left is a hollow shell or so that's how it feels! My life is so empty now! After being a loaner for so long a time then to be with the love of my life for less than 5 years! It just wasn't long enough! Some tell me about someone they knew who were together for 30 years and now there is only one! I only WISH I could've got 10 more years with my beloved Robin Denise but I didn't! She became more beautiful with every passing day! I used to tell her, "Have I told you lately how beAutiful you are? She'd look at me with those beautiful green eyes, so full of love and say in a calm voice Yes! Have I told you lately how much I love you? Yes! You DO know that my love for you is strong, I don't even know how deep my love for you is!" That deep, deep love I thought I'd never know in MY life time has turned into the deepest pain I never could immagine! Now a week has turned into a month, now 3 months. What now? Why was I left here with all this pain? Will it ever go away? How long will it be before I can leave this world? I'm ready now! This world has NOTHING for me now! They say I have to go on, that my Robin Denise would WANT me to go on! I know that! I don't have a choice! I could go on a d on but what's the use? Just like every morning when I wake and think what's the use? I just miss my beloved Robin Denise! Those beautiful green eyes! That laugh, smile! Her eyes smiled when she did! She left with a smile!