Show Posts

This section allows you to view all posts made by this member. Note that you can only see posts made in areas you currently have access to.

Topics - DaveB

Pages: [1]
Spouse, Partner Loss / Missing Judy..
« on: December 03, 2013, 06:19:20 PM »
Today's the 3rd anniversary of Judy's passing. I miss her as much as I ever have.

My son and I went to the cemetery, met Judy's two sisters there, first time I've seen or spoken to them in around 3 months (she has three sisters, but one is no longer speaking to anyone, I don't really know what happened). I took a single red rose...she loved roses and I have bought bushels of them for her over the years. Her nickname to her sisters was "Rose".

All came back to my place for a very short visit, then everybody was off to do whatever it is normal people do. I could have used a few hours of conversation, but that's the way it is. I'm sort of getting used to it.

Spouse, Partner Loss / two years
« on: November 28, 2012, 07:35:17 PM »
Coming up on the two year anniversary. Not having a very good time with it. I thought the first year anniversaries were supposed to be the worst...this one so far seems worse, although I canít really remember what I was doing this time last year. I canít remember last week, let alone last year. The week or so between Thanksgiving and Dec. 3 were the worst of my life, I canít stop reliving that week. Iím sick of thinking about it. Nothing but pain and sadness. At least on the 3rd everybody is taking the day off to gather and be with each other, I guess that will help.

Spouse, Partner Loss / Brief update
« on: November 25, 2012, 10:42:09 AM »
The new job didnít work out, so Iím back to the old routine, away from home a lot. Donít care much, at least it makes the time pass quicker. I never took the photography class I signed up for, my work schedule kept me away too much. The only thing that gives me anything like enjoyment is being outdoors, exploring, walking, hiking, running. I try to do that every chance I get, although last week I was sick and didnít get out too much. Havenít been sick like that in many years.

Judyís mother died last week, so we had a quiet Thanksgiving at her house with Judyís sisters and their families. The last 3 years have been so hard on everyone. Three years ago Judyís dad got sick and died, then Judy almost 2 years ago, and now her mother. Judy always tried to help her sisters care for their father and mother, but she was never able to help much due to her own illness. Itís been exhausting for everyone. Now maybe her sisters can get a little rest, but itís not much comfort to them. Theyíve lost both their parents and their baby sister in the last three years.

I donít like being so downcast, but thatís the way it is. Maybe itís the season and the approaching anniversary. There just isnít much joy in my life, and no prospect for any in the future that I can see. But what can you say, I just keep plodding along.

Pages: [1]