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Main / Get Over It
« on: October 11, 2009, 10:00:53 AM »
Death affects everyone; no one is exempt from it. At some point we all lose someone precious. It's inevitable

I had recently lost a cherished photograph of my little brother; I carried it everywhere in my wallet. Sometimes looking at him with his smile would cause me to tear up and bawl, othertimes I couldn't stop laughing at the shenanigans we pulled growing up.

Our mother keeps the original negatives of this particular photograph; I'd emailed her asking for a copy or the negative so I'd never fear losing his picture.

I received a phone call the other day, in it our mother said "This is the 3rd picture you've misplaced, you obviously don't care about them. Just get over Julian and stop being so depressed." No words can describe the betrayal I felt.

My mother is a accomplished nurse but she sounded so cold and indifferent.

Has anyone else ever had this happen?

Main / New to the site
« on: September 27, 2009, 01:57:20 PM »
hi, i'm gabriele

i found this website a few days ago.

just wanted to say hi  :D

Sibling Loss / Without You, My Entire Life Is Meaningless
« on: September 27, 2009, 11:26:34 AM »
My name is Gabriele, I am Julian's older brother; we are twenty two months apart in age.

I lost my little brother Julian the 24th of November, 1996 to Cystic Fibrosis, a fatal genetic abnormality. He was 11.

Therapists and grief counselors say not to blame your mistakes or problems on the loss of a loved one, it only invalidates their death.

But Julian is my everything; he ismy best friend, my ward and angel. I have several brothers but none of them share the same empathetic link Julian and I have. I find myself growing more and more distant from them and the rest of my family: I never speak with our father, I can barely tolerate my own mother, my uncles and aunts are in the dark about everything.

I've been on a descending spiral since Julian died: I nearly flunked out of high school, was expelled from college, discharged from the military for a suicide attempt, have estranged myself from lovers and many friends...I feel that anything I set my mind to is vapid and in vain. Is it right to blame all my problems on something that befalls everyone? Is my loss so powerful it must inhibit all I do?

Julian is my little angel and I need him more than ever.

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