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Main / almost 2 years... so sad
« on: April 01, 2010, 01:45:10 AM »
If I could have one lifetime wish, a dream that could come true, I would wish with all my heart for yesterday and you.

I miss you everyday my Ronnie.  I wait here for the day I will see you again.

Joyce


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Main / 14+ months
« on: August 14, 2009, 11:43:01 PM »
I am just going into my second year, I lost my husband 6.3.08, and this has been much more difficult than the first year.  I think the first year I was in such shock (he was only 56), disbelief, denial, anger, making deals with God... just waiting to wake up from this horrible nightmare.  Now I know I will never see Ron in this life.  I still work but other than that I isolate myself from most everyone.  I just can't stand to pretend that everything is getting back to "normal".  Everyone's life has moved on and mine ended that horrible day. I would rather be with my dogs, in the home that I shared with my husband, than anywhere else.  I have been told that this is not good for me but this is the way I want it to be.  The one thing I have learned from this is that I do what I want, when I want and I really don't care what anyone else thinks. I have always been told that things will get better, easier but it hasn't for me.   I have just learned to control my emotions, put on that fake smile and deal with it until I can run home.  I just can't imagine spending the rest of my life like this.  This was not how it suspossed to be for us.  I can't get past it.  I miss him so much. 

Wishing some peace for us all.





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Main / My heart wants......
« on: January 24, 2009, 12:02:19 AM »
My heart wants what my mind knows I can't have.. I want my husband back.  Not a day goes by that I don't walk down the hall.. come around the corner and pray to hear the garage door open and see my Ronnie come through the door.  It has been almost 8 months and it has not gotten "easier" or "better" for me.  One year before Ron died I was in the hospital for almost 3 weeks...6 days in ICU.. and I fought so hard to live.. so hard.  I wish I would have died.  I am so mad at God for letting me live.  The mornings are the hardest for me.  Every night before I go to sleep I beg Ron to come and get me.  And in the morning I wake up knowing I have to face another horrible, lonely day without Ron.  I hate it.  I don't want to be here anymore.  Ron was my life and now he's gone.  I can't wait for the day I will see him again.  As always, I pray for all of us here taking this horrible journey.

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Main / My favorite song...
« on: January 11, 2009, 10:39:11 PM »
I Will Remember You
By Amy Grant

It makes me cry every time I hear it.......I love and miss you so much Ronnie.


I will be walking one day
Down a street far away
And see a face in the crowd and smile
Knowing how you made me laugh
Hearing sweet echoes of you from the past
I will remember you.

Look in my eyes while youre near
Tell me whats happening here
See that I dont want to say good-bye
Our love is frozen in time
Ill be your champion and youll be mine
I will remember
I will remember you.

Later on
When this fire is an ember
Later on
When the nights not so tender
Given time
Though its hard to remember darlin
I will be holding
Ill still be holding to you
I will remember you.

So many years come and gone
And yet the memory is strong
One word we never could learn
Good-bye
True love is frozen in time
Ill be your champion and youll be mine
I will remember you
So please remember
I will remember you
I will remember you
I will remember you
I will remember you.





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