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Main / Time marches on
« on: July 03, 2008, 07:48:47 PM »
I have not been on this web site for awhile.  I guess it means I have made a lot of progress.  Tommorrow is the 4th and since my husband usually had to work most of the 4th of july holidays it shouldn't be too hard on for most of the day.  It's just that I've been trying so hard to take care of things around here by myself. I have 3 sons but they are so busy and I can't afford to pay people to come in help with things. This whole week  has been yukkie. Just things going wrong. Believe it or not i had problems getting my DSL up and running right.  Four days before things were lined out, being stupid doesn"t help. My daughter-in-law spent a couple of days in the hospital because of chest pains( there's a history of bad hearts in her family).  Them my one son was told there was another spot on his lung so he has to go see this other docter.  It's probably nothing.  Coming from the midwest people around are prone to some kind of deposits or something like that.  But it sent me into a downward spiral.  It's  been little over 26 months since my husband died of cancer. My coping skills are much better then  they had been  but 45 years with one person makes it hard to change.  Also some strange things have been happening too.  For some reason I picked up the book "90 Minutes In Heaven" and read it.  As soon  as i finished it,  a show on TV showed the head character spending time in heaven and wondering if he was meant to stay.  Any way i kept trying to figure out if it was meant for my benifit or if I was suppose to pass the information on.  I have a friend with a rare form of liver cancer. I've been sending her thinking you cards and things.  Wasn't sure if i was suppose to pass this on too.   I've been  rambling i know but I feel a little better again and  can start coping again.   Thanks again to all!     Meemaw

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Main / What Now
« on: March 07, 2008, 09:07:29 PM »
This isn't really a new topic but I keep wondering why I am here alone without my husband.  His niece said when her husband died in an accident" There is a reason why this happened."  I just can't figure what the reason is for me.  I am begining to come to terms with my grief, it took such a long time and coming here has helped.  I really don't know what I am suppose to do with my life.  I know all the things i can do after my grandchildren (the ones I baby sit) go to school all day but I really don't want to. For so many years while I worked and before I worked i volunteered.  When I tell someone that I'll do something i keep my word no matter what. Maybe in time when the time is right I'll find out.      Meemaw

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