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Sibling Loss / I will always remember Bobby
« on: May 29, 2007, 11:25:01 AM »
The angels are taking care of my brother.

Sibling Loss / First anniversary
« on: May 29, 2007, 11:13:07 AM »
Today is the first anniversary of my brother's death.  He committed suicide by shooting himself in the heart.  I could not even bring myself to go to work today.  He was  not married and besides his critizing mother until the end, I am the only one that he had to talk with.  I never saw it coming and the guilt is there everyday.  Some are better than others.  The hardest part is that no one I talk with especially at work, does not understand why I still grieve.  Not sure how to make them understand.  I miss him very much.  I lost another brother to a massive coronary a year and a half before.  I think that hit him pretty hard which was another contributor to his depression.  I still have questions.  I have one brother left and our mother is now in a nursing home.  I can't even bring myself to go visit her.  I blame her for my brother's suicide.  She was very hateful to me and him and could never say anything nice!!  I am not exaggerating!  I know that she is the only mother that I willl ever have, but, I still can't bring myself to forgive her for his death.  My heart goes out to everyone that has had a loss.

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