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Parent Loss / Re: Birthdays and Angel Dates - NEW!
« on: February 17, 2014, 12:29:46 AM »

My mother's birthday is Feb 19th 1947. Her deathday is Aug 22 2013. Her name is Sue.
Contemplating her a lot this week as it is her first birthday after her deathday... She would've been 67. Don't know how I feel about that. I just know that I miss her with every fibre of my being.

Xo love and light to all

Parent Loss / Re: Introductions
« on: February 16, 2014, 11:15:00 PM »
Hi my name is Hillary and I lost my mother 6 months ago.

It is her birthday in two days and I am still awash with grief. She died about six weeks after my marriage. She seemed completely healthy and her normal jovial and loving self on my wedding day. She was however, as always, struggling with her relationship with my father. She died four days before their 45th wedding anniversary. She told me over the phone about two weeks before she went into hospital that she was going to leave him. I can't tell anyone this, expect my sister.

Mum was my soulmate, my best friend. I feel like an orphan, my father is a child she had cared for for 45 years. He is an alcoholic. He hasn't eaten properly since she died.. Or cared for himself at all. I have to coax him to bathe, to eat. He won't pick up a thing other than a bottle. If I leave him for three days I come back to empty bottles lining the lounge. My sister is much older than me but she is not coping either. Her marriage is in tatters. Mum's sisters have ostracised her. There have been police reports and blocking of phone numbers and Facebook accounts etc. I feel like I haven't just lost one person I feel like my whole family has disintegrated without her. She bound us to one another...

She was an artist. A teacher. She connected with anyone she met. She was caring and passionate and kind. She and I shared a closeness I have not come close to anywhere except with my husband. I
It is not the same though. I think it might be in 20 years but right now I feel so alone.

I have to stop now because I am overcome. Xo

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