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Child Loss / Re: Morning
« on: March 11, 2015, 02:00:23 AM »
Hi Janka, I had to look to see where you were from when you mentioned flowers blooming and 50 degrees! :)  Slovakia, its only a guess, but somewhere in Russia?  We are finally out of winter I hope, I have had enough winter to last me a while!  Its nice enough out now, I would love to go for a walk, but can still only do short trips, like 150 feet to the mailbox.

Love and Hugs
Peggy

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Child Loss / Re: Morning
« on: March 09, 2015, 11:38:01 AM »
Thank you Janka and Terry.  Terry, I do a lot of walking when the weather is nice.  Cardiologist wants me to do Cardiac Rehab, but I have no insurance, I can't afford it.  So, I am going to do my own idea of cardiac rehab. :)   From family history of Cardiac Problems, I know the main thing is to get heart rate up and keep it there a certain length of time.  My bro in law went thru cardiac rehab after his heart attack, so I figure I can get some pointers from him. lol

I am doing good, just tired today.  But, sun isn't out, and I have a hard time with cloudy days, so am blaming that!  :)

Love and hugs
Peggy

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Child Loss / Morning
« on: March 05, 2015, 04:09:32 AM »
Its been a while sense I have posted here, but felt the need to update all of you on whats going on with me.  On February 24th, I woke up with my shoulders hurting bad, put it off to too much game playing on tablet the past few days.  About 3 in the afternoon, I suddenly got dizzy and broke out in a sweat.  Having a family history of heart disease, I knew the sweating wasn't good.  So, I dialed 911, 20 minutes later I was being life flighted  out of my front yard.  I had had a major heart attack.  No typical heart attack symptoms, Ladies pay attention to your bodies, women normally do not have the typical symptoms.  If something isn't "right", call 911, doctors would much rather treat you for indigestion, pulled muscle or a panic attack, other than pronouncing you dead with a heart attack.  Cardio that did the stint placement, (right artery was 100% blocked), said another few minutes and I wouldn't be here.

I have had some close friends ask me if I saw AC.  No, I didn't, can't even say I felt him around me.  But, I am okay with that, had a friend that is very intuitive tell me, that he felt AC wasn't there because AC knew his Momma had everything under control.  When I was in the ambulance in my driveway, my vitals were way down, how I was awake and lucid, I have no idea.  My first thought when EMT's gave my vitals to life flight was, "So, this is how it ends".  A very calm feeling, no anxiety, no panic, just that thought.

I am well on my way to complete recovery.  Going to wonder for a while, why I am still here and my purpose for being here.

Love and Hugs
Peggy

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Child Loss / Re: Adam
« on: April 27, 2014, 05:27:43 PM »
Sorry I missed this yesterday.  I hope you had some signs from Adam.

Love
Peggy

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Child Loss / Re: So quiet. How is everyone doing?
« on: April 24, 2014, 03:03:07 PM »
Hi Terry,

Not much going on in my life.  I am just glad winter is over! 

Love
Peggy

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Recommended Grief Books / Re: Divorce?
« on: April 24, 2014, 03:00:50 PM »
Hi Doug.

If I remember correctly your daughter is already seperated/divorced.  Don't let the title throw you off, its very good at covering emotions whether one decides to stay or leave. 

Too Good to Leave, Too Bad to Stay by Mira Kirshenbaum. 

You might also try a search on Amazon, and read reviews.

Love
Peggy

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Grief not related to deaths / Re: grief over spouse's disability
« on: April 04, 2014, 01:31:10 PM »
Sally,

I have a small pair of pliers that I use for a lot of things, that may work for the lamps.  They are about 4 inches long.  I have had them so long I don't know where I bought them, but probably in a craft department somewhere. lol  I was recently in Napa Auto Parts and they had all sorts of small tools, in containers on the counter by the register.

Also, a lot of lamps have knobs on them that just screw in, and can be replaced with different knobs.  Lowes has replacement knobs.

Love
Peggy


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Grief not related to deaths / Re: grief over spouse's disability
« on: March 11, 2014, 03:02:20 PM »
Hi Sally,

I just somehow lost a long post I had made to you, this one is gonna be the readers digest version. lol

Your husband is probably feeling a bit of a failure right now.  Its hard to realize you are not going to be able to do things that brought you pleasure.  Its difficult to ask others to do things for you when you have done them your entire life.

I have a neurological condition called Essential Tremor.  I am slowly loosing use of my hands.  The left one is almost useless already.  Its genetic, and I have no idea how much farther it may progress, because my Dad died very young and he was the genetic link.  There are medications that might work, they don't for me, have tried them all.

Terry had some very good advice. 

Will keep you and your husband in prayers. 

Love
Peggy

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Child Loss / Re: New TV show -Resurrection
« on: March 11, 2014, 05:20:44 AM »
Hi Adele,

I watched it and liked it, I will watch it again.  Not only the little boy, but others come "back" to help solve a murder mystery, involving the little boys aunt.

Love
Peggy

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Parent Loss / Re: Really really hurting
« on: February 27, 2014, 02:56:21 PM »
Gail,

When my Dad died, he was the first family member to die.  I think for a few weeks I was in shock, but reality hit a few weeks later.  We all deal with death differently and grieve differently.  In my case with my Dad, I got pissed after a few weeks.  I screamed yelled and even cussed God for taking my Dad. 

Do what you have to do to help yourself, regardless of how bad or awful it may sound to other people.

Love
Peggy

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Parent Loss / Re: Really really hurting
« on: February 25, 2014, 02:55:22 PM »
Gail,

I am so so sorry your Mom died.  There are no magic words to make it go away and not hurt, I wish there was.

My Dad died suddenly, I had talked to him like I did every night the night before, he was fine, the next morning my phone rang and my dad had had a massive heart attack.  That was almost 40 years ago and I still miss him.

Cry, scream, talk, what ever it takes. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you.

Love
Peggy

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Grief not related to deaths / Re: Poem to My Ex
« on: January 30, 2014, 07:26:57 PM »
Always love reading your poetry!

Love
Peggy

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Child Loss / Re: loss of adult child
« on: January 27, 2014, 06:02:25 PM »
Hi Sally,

Welcome to WebHealing.  I lost my only child almost 12 years ago, he was 30, and there are days the pain is still unbelievable.  I think when a child dies, a part of us actually dies with them, and life may go on, but it will never be the same.

I have told people for years, It doesn't get easier with time, but it does get different.

Love
Peggy

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Child Loss / Re: Wishing you all...
« on: December 23, 2013, 06:46:37 PM »
As usual, no plans here other than a day with my Kindle.  :)   I have had invites, but prefer to spend my time alone, just me and memories of Christmas the way it use to be.

This time of year is never easy, but it seems this year is worse.  This is the 12 year without AC, the first without my brother. 

Merry Christmas to all. 

Love
Peggy

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Child Loss / Re: My Brother
« on: November 11, 2013, 01:55:36 PM »
Thank You Helene.  Yes, he was the only brother to us 3 girls.  We weren't always close, but a few years ago I think we all realized that we were getting older and time was short, so it was time to at least learn to get along.

I am doing okay.  Like I told a friend yesterday.... I have had my only child die, death doesn't hurt like it use too. 

Love
Peggy

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