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Main / Just the Other Day. . .
« on: December 31, 2009, 09:40:07 PM »
I was going through my book marks and I found this page. . .again.

It has been two and half years now and I have been days. . .

yesterday would have been my mom's 67th birthday so it has been a little rough lately. . .

I have to say while life is do different then it was before June 4, 2007.

I can breath again. . .

I smile. . .

I laugh and I am learning to live again very slowly. . .

loosing my mom was devastating still some mornings I wake and wish this nightmare would end.

My mom would be proud of me. I have accomplished a lot of things these past few years and I think of her smiling down on me

I want to say Thank you!
This site and the people here

I came here and read and posted multiple times the first year. . .

I hung on. . . 

This site is important and has helped me tremendouly.

I wanted to let you know I am thinking of you here,.

Thank you.

Stephanie and Andy

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Main / Re: Happy New Year
« on: December 31, 2009, 09:33:12 PM »
Happy New year!

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Main / Re: 2nd Anniversary far worse than first
« on: December 31, 2009, 09:32:30 PM »
Christmas is hard with out my mom. . . this is my third christmas without her.

Her birthday woudl have been yesterday!

I miss her dearly. . .

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Main / Prayers Needed. . .
« on: March 25, 2009, 10:00:07 PM »
It has been awhile.

I visit when I can come June it has been two years since my mom  :-[


COme june I am looking for a new job. . .

on Friday my dad is having triple bypass surgery. . .

he can sure use some prayers

thank you

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Main / It's been awhile but tomorrow is my Mom's birthday!
« on: December 29, 2008, 08:28:00 PM »
It has been a while since I have been here.  I found this site the day my mom passed away and I read messages day in and day out for the first six months. . .

After finishing my second christmas without I miss her dearly!!!!!  Tomorrow would have been her 66th birthday!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY Mom up in heaven!

18 months ago I could never imagine my life as it is today. . . .It is sure different without her. . .

I am a special education teacher started my job a month ago. k-2 special day class

I've been overwhelmed but I am making. . it one step at a time. . .

My mom has missed many special things like my six year old talking for the first time he has autism. . .

I have learned a lot with my angel up in heaven. . .

It is okay some days just to go with the motions and that sometimes is a huge accomplishment.

Despite huge odds and difficult situations one can make it one day at a time!

With Love

Stephanie

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Main / Re: how do u deal w/birthdays??
« on: September 01, 2008, 09:53:55 PM »
It is hard to deal with birthdays. . .MY mom passed away in June 2007.  I thought things would be different NOW.  What I did on her first birthday without her.  I did something she would want to do in order to celebrate her.  I have to say I have been in a rough patch lately and miss her terribly.

Remember to do what you need to do on her birthday if that is missing work to make then miss work.  Take care of yourself that day I am sure she would want you too.

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Main / Re: Another Anniversary
« on: August 14, 2008, 08:56:26 AM »
I have that saying on a cross in my car

Gone yet not forgotten. . .in my rough moments I read the saying and it truly helps me connect one more moment with my mom

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Main / Re: 3 months and feeling worse than ever
« on: August 14, 2008, 08:53:58 AM »
Don,

I'm sorry for your pain.  It has been a little over a year since my mom became my angel.  I struggle.  Some days are better then others.  It has been rough lately.  I had a friend say something about 6 months into it. "You should be over it."  I'm thinking I lost my best friend and your saying what?  In due time we never get over it we learn live and deal.  It gets different every day.  My relationship with God is what has truly saved me many times.

Stephanie

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Main / Re: Unexpected death of a parent
« on: June 14, 2008, 08:18:44 PM »
I have to share story.  My mom passed away a year ago.  At the same time I reconciled with my father after an 18 year estrangement.  It was wierd reconciling with him but I looked at him and said I do not want to come rushing to your death bed to reconcile (My sister was estranged from my mom).  I could put the pass behind me if you can.  This year has been incredibly difficult morning the loss of my mom and reconciling with my father.  I have a hard time to this day calling him dad but I also know he has truly been there for me this pass year.  I'm sorry on your loss. This journey does suck but one can get through it.

Stephanie

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Main / Re: My Mom's One Year Angel Date! Oh do I miss her
« on: June 04, 2008, 06:23:45 AM »
Thank you for all your replies ----I'm okay and with the grace of god will have an inspiring day.

Stephanie

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Main / Re: Surving Tornado
« on: June 03, 2008, 05:48:24 PM »
Thank God your safe.  I will say a prayer for you and your town!

God Bless

Stephanie

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Main / Re: Dealing with a Loss
« on: June 03, 2008, 05:47:43 PM »
I'm so sorry your on this journey.  If you ever need to talk please send me a private message.

I've been on this walk a year. . . .It sucks but you can survive and make it and your mom I know will be proud of you.

Stephanie

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Main / My Mom's One Year Angel Date! Oh do I miss her
« on: June 03, 2008, 05:45:07 PM »
Wow, One year without Mom ---tomorrow is the day (JUNE 4, 2008).  I do not know what to feel numb. I miss her and need her.  I never imagined how to different my life would be one year later.  It's not terrible but it is DIFFERENT.  She is my best friend and has missed much of my accomplishes. . . this year.  I need her to talk to too hug. . .I miss my best friend and my true hero she showed dignity till the end. . .

Would she be proud? Does she know what I am trying to do? My son has sure had to grow up this last year without her.  She was his other half with me being a single mom. He is in a moderate to severe special day class.  He has severe autism although he is beginning to speak WORDS!

I'm going to release some balloons and bring her flowers Thursday as the cemetary cleans up on Thrusdays so it can be there a whole week.

I miss her hugs---she truly knew me and I hope as a parent I can know my son as well as she knew what I needed.

I also want to thank this site.  I found it the same day she passed away and it has been hear for me.  I may not always posts but I read as it centers me and truly helps me when I am in need.

I pray for all us daily.

Thanks and God Bless!

Stephanie

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Main / Re: Lost without momma
« on: May 26, 2008, 09:35:47 AM »
I'm sorry for your loss.  I know that one can make it through it.  It hurts and you cry and people think you should not be sad but you are.  One has every right to be.  The numbness is important I feel it got me through those days I did not want to get up but I had too.  It is important to cry and have those days.  You will make it through. . .

On June 4 it will be the one year angel date for my mom.  I miss her.  I really feel like life is different.  This journey eventhough incredibly painful has also been truly transformational. . . .

Stephanie

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Main / Happy Heavenly B-Day Andy-- 24 years without you is too much
« on: May 25, 2008, 06:26:11 PM »
My brother Andy was 16 when he passed away 24 years ago memorial day. . . .This heavenly birthday is really effecting maybe it because the one year passing of my mom is 10 days away. . .I can't believe it.  I hope she is catching up on all the years he has been gone. . .Just sad today . . .

I was nine years old when he passed away--- I miss them both today and every day----

Their angel dates are only 10 days apart ----- Time only lessens the pain a little I miss the both of them dearly. . . .

Stephanie

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