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Crisis, Grief, and Healing => Child Loss => Topic started by: stella joshs mom on December 03, 2006, 02:40:50 AM

Title: Arghh...still trying to get a Pic or 2
Post by: stella joshs mom on December 03, 2006, 02:40:50 AM
Here goes!
Stella
Title: Re: Arghh...still trying to get a Pic or 2
Post by: starynyte on December 04, 2006, 08:40:59 AM
the pix have to be under 124 kb in order to work, if you need help resizing let me know
Title: Re: Arghh...still trying to get a Pic or 2((Stella))
Post by: Paula (Adam's Brokenhearted Mama) on December 09, 2006, 02:09:23 PM
When my son Adam disappeared by his own choice a few years ago it was one of the darkest times in my life. I felt like I was swallowed up into the abyss of despair of not knowing his fate.
My boy finally surfaced as I hope and pray that yours will too.
We had a few years before he passed and now of course it is a totally different type of pain and anguish.
Paula
Title: Re: Arghh...still trying to get a Pic or 2
Post by: stella joshs mom on December 11, 2006, 01:11:34 AM
Hi Paula-
THanks for the reply to me.  You said your son was gone for two years.  Did he ever tell you why?  Did he tell you where he went?  I sure hope you are right but as I am at 17 months now I am less hopeful for his return and find I am as full of grief as every one here.  I don't know how to move on as you all are trying to do.  There is no knowing only this awful feeling of what  do I do next that I haven't done already to find him.  How much, money and energy  and time will it take me away from  the rest of my family and friends and will I ever know?  What did you try when your son was missing?  What helped you?  Did you ever feel that both you and he somehow knew something like this was going to happen?  Josh and I did.  He lived each day as he wanted not following conformity and saying he thought he was going to die some day of cancer.  (He's a red head, fair complexion!)  I always told him no he was wrong.  But something, there was something about how hs little sister and I grieved when he went away to college.  Something that he wanted but when asked he told me he would rather just not graduate but still have another year or two in High school.  Something we all felt.  Wanting to keep things as they were.  I did not do this with his older sister nor am i doing it with his sister who is a senior this year in high school.  Just Josh.  His youngest sister Tia got depressed about it in Kindergarten.  Its like we three knew something.  Thats why I am scared he is not coming back.  That and the fact that no one has heard from him.