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Crisis, Grief, and Healing => Child Loss => Topic started by: AC Mom on June 05, 2011, 08:18:18 PM

Title: Hi all
Post by: AC Mom on June 05, 2011, 08:18:18 PM
I don't post much, but I do come here every day and read the new posts.  My thoughts and prayers are with all of you.

We are at that dreaded month of June.  I suppose I will never like June again.  The 25th will be 9 long years, sinse AC's death.  The 4th was the last day I saw him.  The 18th, the last day I talked to him, my last words to him were,"Be careful, I love you".   The next day came the call no Mother wants to get.  He had been in a accident.  For years, I was afraid of flying, told people that the only way I would get on a plane was if AC was hurt and dying.  That became reality, 6 hours after I got the call.

5 days later, I had life support removed.  Me and AC had talked about his job, driving a 18 wheeler cross country, and parking it, and hitting the roads on his Harley.  That he could have a bad accident and end up on life support with brain a injury.  His only request was that I didn't let him live at that point.  That living with brain damage was not his idea of living.

Even though it was the hardest thing I ever did, it was not hard for me to make that decision, I did it his way in the end.

So, when June 25th gets here............ I will not work this year, I am gonna go to the cemetary my parents are buried at and talk to them and AC for a while.  AC was cremated, at his request, but there is a memorial to him on the headstone.

Thanks for listening.

Love and Hugs
Peggy