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Crisis, Grief, and Healing => Child Loss => Topic started by: AC Mom on June 05, 2011, 08:18:18 PM
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I don't post much, but I do come here every day and read the new posts. My thoughts and prayers are with all of you.
We are at that dreaded month of June. I suppose I will never like June again. The 25th will be 9 long years, sinse AC's death. The 4th was the last day I saw him. The 18th, the last day I talked to him, my last words to him were,"Be careful, I love you". The next day came the call no Mother wants to get. He had been in a accident. For years, I was afraid of flying, told people that the only way I would get on a plane was if AC was hurt and dying. That became reality, 6 hours after I got the call.
5 days later, I had life support removed. Me and AC had talked about his job, driving a 18 wheeler cross country, and parking it, and hitting the roads on his Harley. That he could have a bad accident and end up on life support with brain a injury. His only request was that I didn't let him live at that point. That living with brain damage was not his idea of living.
Even though it was the hardest thing I ever did, it was not hard for me to make that decision, I did it his way in the end.
So, when June 25th gets here............ I will not work this year, I am gonna go to the cemetary my parents are buried at and talk to them and AC for a while. AC was cremated, at his request, but there is a memorial to him on the headstone.
Thanks for listening.
Love and Hugs
Peggy