Hi Penny
I know how much it hurts, I can't even breath at times, I also depended on my husband for so many things, we were always together, didn't have many friends. it was just us, we loved each other more than anything, so believe me I know, it does feel like I can't go on always, but I try to push myself into things, or I will just give up, and I know that Johnny would not want me to give up. We will be together again, but we have to wait until it is time. Fred is with you all the time, don't you feel him, do you see signs from him, I know that you want to see him, feel him, touch him, but right now we can't, but know that someday we will be with them again, our love will last forever, it will never change. I hope you can find some strength, and peace, ask Fred to help you and he will.
Take care
hugs
Karen