Drugs are a very powerful thing but I have seen people overcome them, but it takes a long time and the most important part is that there is a true commitment, regardless of the consequences to quit. As I am sure you have been told, time and time and time and time again, you must completely change your life. The people you hang with, etc. There is no "just a moment" with someone who has been helping you, feeding you drugs and bull shit about u. It takes a lot for children to be taken away from parents but you have to straighten yourself out before you can ever be an effective loving mother. I think you can feel good about the fact that the children are in a safe environment. They never asked to be born but once done, they deserve the best. When I say best, I do not mean toys, computers, etc. They need consistent love. But u must love yourself first and work on your demons. As Dena said, there are other sections on this site that you might be more comfortable. Our children died, we will never be given the opportunity to hold, kiss, love, nurture them. If you child has been taken away permanently, one that child is of age, and you are clean and sober for a very long time, you may be able to establish a relationship. Until then, please concentrate on what you have and not what you don't have because only that will take you down.
Rebecca Jason's Mom
Topic: childloss (Read 2311 times)
