I know,My youngest is 17 and he has always been the baby,keren was 6 years older then James and when he turns 23 it will feel so strange.Also I don't want to live longer then keren was alive.Meaning I don't want to be here 24 years with keren only being on this earth for 23 years.Does that make sense?Love,Louise[keren's mom] [/color]