Its been 20 years today since Jason left this Earth.I sure do miss him. We went to the land Sunday and put out wreath and flowers as I do every year. I told my husband I can't believe we have been going to the land every year for 20 yrs. He was 47 in August and time seems to stand still at times. I don't know what to do anymore, I just function and survive. I am so tired of this phony life I live and most times can't talk about Jason because no one wants to listen. Everyone goes on with their lives as if nothing has happened and it hasn't to them. I just work and sleep . I am so tired all the time I come home from work and I fall asleep in my chair, I don't have any energy to do anything. Just rambling I guess, No one cares anymore. Hugs to all, LaVonne mom to Jason