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KristenH

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Feeling alone
« on: November 13, 2018, 02:01:49 PM »
Iíve been through a lot.

In 2014, my father became officially bedridden on Christmas day due to Frontotemporal dementia and my sister was diagnosed with stage 3 colon cancer. She went through operations, a colostomy bag, and 6 months of chemo.

In 2015, my husbandís play went to Broadway, and for that play he was nominated for a Tony award, as was the play itself, the playwright, and 3 of the actors.

We went to the Tony award ceremony on June 7, and the next day, out of the blue, he told me he wanted a divorce. This was totally unexpected and an enormous shock to me.

In September, 3 months after that, my sisterís doctor found a tumor in her ovary. It was removed, and sent to the lab. We learned her colon cancer had metastasized, and that she now has stage 4 colon cancer. Fortunately, she has been clear for 3 years.

My father is still alive, somehow, but he is like a 2 month old infant. He can't talk or do anything for himself and he doesn't know who we are.

I have had an enormous spiritual awakening as a result of all this, but there is also incredible damage to my heart, damage that caused me to push away the man who became my best friend and love of my life after everything happened. He is gone now. He doesnít trust me anymore. This is the loss that is triggering the true healing, and therefore the one I need to talk about the most.

I am healing, but in a lot of pain still. I thought this board could help.

Thank you.