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maviles

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My momma, the love of my life, my sky, gone thursday
« on: March 25, 2018, 04:38:45 PM »
Well, the love of my life, my best friend, my little mother gone.

She always had problems to eat, so after a long time, the doctor diagnosed her with hyperesophagus II that is the begin of this disease, so she decided to do a simple surgery, heller's myotomy, but after the surgery, she got a infection, that evoluted to a sepsis, and after a sepsis chock .

Well, she work since she was 15yo and gone(48yo) and my dad had a lot of plans, to start working less and enjoy the life, we would move to other the house, that she choose, and thought all details for 5 years.She would see the results of the work after this surgery.
The life wasn't fair with her, she worked so much, too much, and we was just waiting this simple surgery to change our lives. Im crying everyday after she's gone.i consider my self so much young to lose my mother(21yo). Now its just me, my brother and my Dad. Sometimes i can't sleep and can't eat. I don't feel pleasure to do the things that i use to like.Sometimes I feel that my life doesn't have any sense. I just would like to give one more hug and kiss on her, apologize everything that we fall out. I could give anything for that.

My dad has a little company, where he worked just with my mother, for 30 years, i feel so much for him, sometimes, i feel more for him than for myself.They was always in line. Always working together.

The pain that i feel, is something that i never seen before, there are moments of fear and cry during the day that i just can't control.
This pain is consuming me.

Sometimes I see whatsapp audios, photos and videos of my momma, and i miss her, even more.

I just would like to good-bye and thanks for everything.I didn't deserve my mom, she was so good for me.

I'm don't believe in afterlife, and now its the first time that a really hope, that im wrong, i just want one more kiss and a hug.


Mother, you will be eternal for me

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Re: My momma, the love of my life, my sky, gone thursday
« Reply #1 on: March 26, 2018, 04:11:05 PM »
(((((Maviles)))))

I'm so sorry to read of the death of your precious Momma. Welcome to Webhealing.

Sending hugs & understanding,
Terry


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Re: My momma, the love of my life, my sky, gone thursday
« Reply #2 on: April 02, 2018, 02:03:35 PM »
Hi Maviles, I'm sorry to hear about your mom. She sounds like she was a very special woman. I understand and can relate and this is a life changing event for you and your family. You can adjust to it but it does take long time and sometimes it can be rough. You and your brother may find that this will bring both of you closer to your father. Anyway welcome to Webhealing. I have found it quite helpful. All of us here aren't experts at dealing with grief. We just come hear to both give and receive advice on what worked for us from our experience. It doesn't mean everything we have tried works for everyone. Just that what helped one person may help someone else as we have either already been where different some people are at or going to be at point in the future where someone else has been.