Hi, everybody! I haven't been around a whole bunch because I'm actually doing pretty good. I was just sitting here a little sad and thought of you.
The end of baseball season always makes me sad. My brother was the biggest St. Louis Cardinal fan in the entire world. He was such a huge fan that a group of his friends (and teammates) came by his visitation just to put a signed baseball in his casket. That was one of the points that made my mom break down and cry. One of his best friends came by and asked her,"Is it ok if we put this in with Meat? We don't want him going away without it."
They called him "Meat".
She told him,"Make sure you guys sign the book." He said,"That's ok...he knows we were here."
Anyway, with the season winding down and the Cardinals fighting for a playoff spot, I got sad. I'm sitting here with a tear in my eye as I write this.
Baseball always makes me sad. My brother's birthday is in a couple weeks. On top of baseball, that makes this the saddest time of the year for me. He was 22 when he was killed. He would've been 44 this year. That means he's been gone longer than he was here.
There's a song by Cole Swindell (a country singer) that might be helpful to some people. It's helping me today just by bringing out emotions I buried. Here's a snippet.
"You should be here, standing with your arm around me here.
Cutting up, cracking a cold beer, saying cheers, hey y'all it's sure been a good year.
It's one of those moments, that's got your name written all over it.
And you know that if I had just one wish it'd be that you didn't have to miss this
You should be here."
Everybody take care. Now I can smile.