My brother, 27, recently OD'd and the doctors have said he has an anoxic brain injury (lack of oxygen to the brain) so many of his brain cells have died and brain tissue does not regenerate... The doctors don't think he'll ever wake up because the damage is too severe and we're going to be transferring him to hospice care in a few days and wait for him to go... My mind is blown because only a few days before this happened, I had a dream about him dying and it felt so real. I woke up and still felt the feelings from it and it was on my mind for a few days after..
I'm 22 and I'm struggling with being OK with this.. Sometimes I am able to think about the positives (he can go to Heaven now and be away from drug abuse) but then I think about how young he is and how he was such a good guy..it's really unfair, he deserves so many more years..
He is my full brother and we were pretty close growing up. We lived on a dead end road out in the country so it was always just me, him and our two cousins so we all would always play games together and I have so many amazing memories of him.. I always told people he was the funniest guy I've EVER known.. I'm just not sure if I'll ever be able to go back to my normal routine without all the thoughts of how much he deserves to be living life which just make me sad for having a life.. I don't know.
Anyway, this is my first post so I apologize for the rambling I'm still trying to process everything that's going on.. I would really appreciate any words of wisdom on moving on with life.