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steve1962

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5 months and i only feel worse
« on: May 22, 2016, 10:23:33 AM »
my wife had a massive stroke dec 23.we took her off life support on the 26 and about 
6 hours later she went to be with God.i sat and watched her die and i cant get this image out of my head.i pray everyday to god to let me be with my wife.i know she will be waiting for me but i wake in the morning and am dissapointed that i am still here.i cannot look at her picture i think about her all the time.i moved in with my son
but everytime i look at our grandkids i can only think about is she is not here to share them with me.we were very close she was my best friend and it only seems to hurt more every day.they have put me on a sedative because i have a bad heart i went through 3 bottles of nitro in a week.she was my reason for living so i no longer take any of my heart medicines i was only take them for her i feel like i'm done here and wish god would let me be with her again

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Re: 5 months and i only feel worse
« Reply #1 on: May 25, 2016, 03:08:34 PM »
Hi Steve - I'm so sorry for the death of your precious wife. I understand regarding that image...all of the memories of the day when our loved one left this earth seems to stay with us for quite awhile. My husband was also on life support and when he died I was so grateful that he wasn't suffering any longer. He didn't want to live like that and was praying for death.

Our time here is so short...like a blink. Enjoy your grandchildren. I know they love you and they need you. And you're the one who will keep their grandmother's memory alive by talking about her, sharing pictures, video, etc. Let us know how you're doing when you get a chance.

Sending a big hug,
Terry
"One thing I've learned on this journey (it's been a year and a few days since my husband, Tom, died of cancer), is that in the beginning, there is a lot of the one-step-forward-two-steps-back shuffle." - RobinBlue - Spouse Loss

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Re: 5 months and i only feel worse
« Reply #2 on: June 13, 2016, 11:13:24 AM »
Steve,  You will be with her again, in time, but it isn't your time, yet.  She wouldn't want that for you.  It's been eight months since II lost my wife, Cathy and, lately, it seems I miss her more than ever.  I don't know if it's the stormy weather or my upcoming surgery or what it is.  My sister lost her husband three years ago and tells me the second year is even harder.  I told her, I didn't need to hear that, but others have said the same thing.  I think we need to try to care for ourselves the best we can.  Eat and sleep and exercise and spend time with friends and family.  Best wishes,  Wally

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Re: 5 months and i only feel worse
« Reply #3 on: October 28, 2016, 08:13:09 AM »
I know yours is an old post and i just found this site and don't know how to use it. I feel just like you having lost my wife of 26 years two weeks ago. Hope you are doing better than me. If you want to reply, feel free.
Ive posted two or three things on this site but have had no responses. Terry, am I doing this right?