Hi, Marcela. I also lost my brother in 1995. He was 22 and I was 27. We were extremely close. He was in the Army at the time. Exactly what happened is complicated, but he was killed in an auto accident on his way home from Fort Bragg, NC.
I'm very sorry we have to meet this way, but you're in the right place. There are wonderful people here who will help in any way we can.
It's safe to talk here.
It took me a very long time to work past my brother, but his death was compounded by losing my dad in 2000. Both were very sudden. I don't have any real advice except keep talking. Somebody here is always reading.