I’m sorry your husband is gone. It is so sad. I am not good with words. My husband passed away 9 days ago on 11-2-18. I found this site and thought I could help others, and I am finding I need more help myself. He had cancer, and he fought, bravely, for 16 months. We thought we had it licked, we were planning to go back home and finish our retirement, and then it metastasized. Lord help us all. I am so sick with grief that all I want to do is read the Bible and sleep. We have been with his WONDERFUL daughters in California. We are from Missouri. I am still with them. Our retirement home/hobby is a gutted farmhouse, and I spent the money to fix up the farmhouse on natural remedies, that were working for quite a while. My future is all changed, now, and I have to figure out what I am going to do. I’m afraid. I know we shouldn’t be afraid, but I am - Sad and afraid. Blessings to everybody.