Dear Shelby and others!
I woke up with a thought of Easter week starting today.It put a smile on my face after last night crying all along.I´ve made up my mind to do not shed the tears this time.It´s still the feast of the Resurrection,the life beyond,the meeting our loved ones waiting for and loving us forever.I´ve drawn the strength going it through.It´s my spiritual path I have to hold onto.Since the priest became a lifesaver of mine I´ve let him take me to where I need to go feeling a profound gratitude.He became the close friend of mine who is on a more emotionally level with me,who I can open up to find out there´s something comforting in that and it causes me a joy everytime I see him,because I´m mindful of the miracle he made for me to help me get right through my life when there were happening the worst things around me,as though my beloved Jan sent him into my life to save me on my way to home he is waiting for me to come one day.It´s a kind of unreal and so wonderful.He picked up the phone when I called up despairing in the middle of the night and since Christmas all goes well in my life.He is one good,kind,indulgent,patient and smiling person,the superior of the Franciscan monastery,absolutely different than most of the priests I´ve known in my whole life.I´m fond of him and esteem him so much,I need him walking through my life and he accepted this kind of rare friendship.He knows that I love my dearest Jan above all and I can talk about him every time we spend together.I can hug him when I need to...He can hold my hand when I need to...We can talk together about everything I worry about or makes me happy when I need to...Today after the mass was done I took a seat in the church and when he saw me,walked in smiling again,putting his kind words out towards me,bringing such a joy into my heart and I returned it to him,took his hand and he took mine.It´s a kind of rare friendship that neither me nor him may not take for granted.He helps me the most and I know that he always will for the rest of my life.
"My dearest,only one and beloved Jan,thank you from the bottom of my heart that you sent me this help in my immense misery and I truly hope to be with you as soon as possible in your loving arms as one forever.I love you above all!!!"
Janka