RespectfulWreck,
I´m sorry for your loss!I lost my father from the gullet cancer when I was 22 y.o.It´s long ago but I understand how you feel right now.I saw my father dying in front of me till his last breath.We all are here for you...whenever you need to talk to...to find a comfort,understanding and support...
Take care!
Hug you from the heart!
Janka (Spouse,Partner Loss)