Today is my grandfather's birthday. I wish I could see him again so bad. It hurts so much knowing that I can't. I have some very special memories of him. The feeling that I got when I would crawl up in his lap or into bed with him was a feeling that I will NEVER EVER forget. I loved him so much. He was a very special man. He was one of the most kindest and loving person I have ever know. I visited his grave a couple of months ago, put some new flowers there and told him I loved him and missed him. I hope he heard me. I just wish it didn't hurt so much.