Robbie,
I am so sorry that you lost the love of your life. I know about the lonliness and everyone else moving on. My husband, Jeff, died a little over 6 and a half years ago, from glioblastoma brain cancer. We went through two surgeries, radiation, chemo and trial chemo, so I understand much of what you went through with your wife. It's all so hard.
Losing your wife so near the holidays has got to be really hard. I don't think I could have handled that. I still have a hard time, especially at Christmas, but part of that is because all of my family is gone, but for a brother who has never really wanted to be a brother to me.
When I knew my husband was going to die, I prayed for God to let it be sometime before Easter, because that was the only special day that I felt I could survive for the first time without him. God answered that prayer; he died the Sunday before Palm Sunday.
I hope you will make it through this time OK, I will pray for you if that's OK. It does get easier but it's a process, and there will be days when you have setbacks. Again, I'm so sorry you have to go through this. I wish none of us had to do it.
Peace and Healing,
mousewife