Hi Shelby - I can tell you without hesitation that working on changing and growing is a forever/life long process. Life's everyday distractions like things being stolen, the car breaking down, health problems, though they may be upsetting, they have to be taken in stride and not as a sign that our growing has ceased. It is not who we are and it is not a punishment - they are simply distractions which is a part of life.
Try not to allow that heavy hand of doubt crush your spirit. Every day is a new adventure and a gift.
It's evident in your writing tone that you have been weighed down by other worldly things and I know it's not easy but try to pull away from that weight. It's pulling you from your foundation and from one of your strongest and most admirable traits....your will.
Love to you, Shelby,
Terry