CeeGee,
Its been along time. Glad you are doing well. There aren't many of us oldies left anymore. I check in maybe once or twice a year, just to read. Its different here now. For the most part us oldies have migrated, moved on, and for me, have completely healed from the loss of my mother almost 10yrs ago this year. You were right, it did feel like a close knit family seven, eight, nine yrs ago when a few of us were around on a daily basis. That was a huge part of my healing. To be able to just write. Now I can't even find the words to comfort anyone anymore. I have healed. Thank God.
It feels good to be able to say that. Healed. As in *no more tears* , no more missing her or wishing she was there. Peace at long last. It was a long time coming for me. But God got me through, and healed my broken heart.
But I fear the next grief cycle every day. I am vastly aware of the reality that at any moment I could get a phone call. Every day could be my last. Every time I see a friend could be the last time I hug them. And as we walk away and say 'see ya later!", I know, that theres a good chance that we wont.
Since you've been gone, I have lost a favorite aunt, only to find out after the fact, just by googling little sisters name and finding our name in an obituary. I didnt even get to say goodbye. Everyone was there but me. so as you can see, my family is still cruel, but we both knew they always would be.
Grandpa is still alive and kicking. He is almost 91 now, living in an assited living. He doesn't know me now, but I know him, and thats all that matters. I treasure every moment that I can sit by his side, touch his hand, and hear his voice, b/c I know all too well, that someday I won't be able to.
I still have not seen or heard from little sister since after moms funeral. Last I read from my aunts obit that I found , she was married again, living in Texas. More power to her. I wish her the best. I have healed from that as well. Again, thank God.
Met a friend on here from child loss board from Michigan over 2 yrs ago. Long but facinating story of how God works. She posted of her loss of a precious 20yr old son and how she donated his liver. I thanked her for that donation as my bosses husband was just saved from another donar in Indy. We posted on here now and then and as we asked questions, it turned out that my boss got her son's liver. God is amazing. Patrick saved many lives that day. He is our hero.
Life is still wonderful for me. Work is going well. It keeps me busy and sometimes drained. Church is growing, and so are we. I hope this finds you doing well. Last I heard you remarried and were living in Minnesota. But thats been too many yrs to count now. I hope things continue to go well for you.
Good to see you here. Like I said, I only come around a couple of times a year to read. But it was good to see an old name here today.
Take Care,
laurenE