I found your website on an obituary for a funeral home last week. A dear friend of mine had died at his home at age 34. My brother, Scott, died in an automoble accident last year on June 17. Lost my dad this year Feb 18th. Rough year to say the least. I saw it coming with my dad, but with my brother, I feel to this day like it is not real, that it may as well have happened last night. He had been struggling with an addiction to pain killers as a result of some surgeries. I cannot go even an hour without thinking of him, how I didn't get to say good-bye to him, and realizing that I will walk with this the rest of my life. I have 3 brothers and 3 sisters. I was the only one in the family except for my parents that was even having contact with him the last couple of years of his life. We were so close, and I am still lost. I saw his faults and pitied his addiction because I saw how he got there and he had told me that he couldn't find his way out of it. I went to a grief counseling group for a while, but the only coping skill offered was journaling and I am still unable to do it. That poem, Just for Today, has really helped me, thanks for posting that.