Hi John-- It sounds like our grief is quite similar. I am sorry your wife had to get this horible disease "Cancer" If I had one wish or miracle to be granted to me it would be that no one would ever get Cancer again. It sounds to me that you and your wife shared a great love as my wife and I did. Some people think that having pictures all over the house just prolongs the agony but to me I feel, it realy helps me cope with her death. they may be right, but for me having the pictures all around feels best. Another item I keep close to me is the last Christmas card she gave me before she died and the words are just beautiful, she wrote "Just for you Joy, that what was on the cover and inside she wrote My Darling John, Another Christmas! There has been a lot. Each one special when we are all together. I love you and I know how good you have been to me all these years. No one could have done better. Merry Christmas Love always Char." The card was home made while she was in Hospice, on her death bed. I love that woman so much, we where married for 42 years and they were wonderful years, we made each other so happy. We where still so much in love, even after all that time, which now feels like it went by in 42 seconds, not years. I hope you are right that time heals, because right now it feels like it never will. We did everything together, we went horse back riding, went to country jams, we traveled all over Canada and The United States in our motorhome. We had a wonderful life together, even though she had to fight that terible Cancer for all those years. Now I feel so alone and I, like our home just feels so empty.
Thanks for your kind words of encouragement, it does help some, to talk with people who are going through the same things you are. I hope all of our grief will pass soon. I don't want to forget her, ever, I just want the hurt to stop.
Sad and Lonely