Hi back again,
Sad and lonely here.
I am sorry for your loss and I know exactly how you feel as I just lost my wife to cancer after being in remission three times. You are right it doesn't matter what kind of cancer you have it is a horrible disease and I wish they could find a cure for it, because no one should have to suffer with that disease. I, like you, am spending a lot of time alone, I just find it hard to be arround people, sure I go for coffee now and then with my friends from our car club but when I go out to family functions I feel out of place and find it hard to cope and not break down in front of them, so that is why I spend so much time alone. I miss my wife so much but I seem to get comfort from looking at her pictuers and listening to some of her home made tapes while she was practicing her singing. I don't want to get over her, all I want is for the pain and grief to subside so I can visit with our family and play with my grand children again.
I hope things get better for you soon.
Sad and Lonely