Dear Pepper ~ all to familair I am with the emotion of anger. I was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo angry at everyone, it did not matter who it was. My family, God, the guy at Circle K, didn't matter.
I found myself focusing my anger on my father. I composed a rather lengthy and hateful email to him, but first sent it to my other family member, I was encourged by them not to send it. I did not end up sending it at their request, but a couple of weeks later, I found that my anger was starting to let up and turn into intense sadness.
I even posted about my anger, it was called "When will I Stop Being so Angry"...if you want to read it. I have seen a lot of others on here posting abuot anger....I guess what i am trying to say, is that you're not alone with your feelings.
I believe what your mother is saying is true...listen to her, Mom's know alot
I am so sorry, again, that you lost your brother, I know that is was the worst day of my life when I found out Tony had died.
Take care.