Just finished reading your posts. I've been where you are today. The hardest thing for me is acknowledging that Cory is gone. I've been in such a denial still hoping this is a dream. I have to tell myself everyday that Cory "is" still here, I just can't see him. Sometimes I ache so bad because I just want to feel a hug, hear his voice or smell him. I don't know how many times I've asked "Why?".
There is a reason that we're still here and have to be here. For some, like me, I'm still searching for the answer. Maybe my purpose is to keep Daddy alive for his children and to be able to teach them and tell them the stories about their father. Maybe your purpose is to keep Jessica alive to her family and friends. There are things that a mother knows about their children that only they can convey.
There are days that we wake up and the void in our hearts is unbearable. Those are the days that we think "maybe tomorrow will be better".
I seem to be rambling but I just want you to know that when you hurt, we all hurt with you. We're here for you. Just keep coming back until you make it through this painful time. Our lives are now the words "moving forward" and doing it the best that we can.
My thoughts are with you and Jessica.
Jo (Cory's Mom)