even though I don't personally know what your going through I am here to listen...my husband also has some issues with the internet. NOTHING invloving child pornography but, other women etc...its really tough trying to out the mask of wonderful on every day when you feel as if you are going to just break into a million peices every minute of every day.
I think people who have no concept on how to treat other people have no clue on how what they do affect everyone who cares for them. As if they don't see it for what it truly is, someone caring about them with no strings attached.
perhaps because they had never gotten that feeling from anyone before or maybe something festering inside that you, myself, or someone else in similar situations could never understand.
Regardless we NEED to help one another rise up from the ashes and drag through each day until it no longer becomes a struggle.
I have learned that you shouldn't have to try to love someone everyday or try to make them love you...I break myself here some days bending over backwards for someone who doesn't deserve it. At least in your current situation you are caring for your mother, and I can't think of a more rewarding person to be cared for by their loved ones. I truly believe that this is why you get up in the day Sara, you know she needs you and you know that you need to be there.
It will get easier with time but, you also need your own time as well. Time to do whatever it is you enjoy and always, always leave time for venting!
Take care of yourself and feel free to message me anytime.