Thank you all for being here and your kind words ((not that you should be here)) no one should be.
Someone wrote awhile back,
Hold onto Kelly's love and let it pull you up from the darkest moments
that’s what has help me so much.
I wrote in a older post awhile back that I have a email address for Kelly, I write to her everyday
to tell her what’s happening in my life, She still lives through me.
((But we do have one companion on this lonely journey our child who died. I think there is never a moment in the day when a part of me in not connected to my daughter Kelly, to our years together and to our present relationship. Our journey through grief is a good-bye to their spirits and to the essence of their beings. My daughter lives inside me now, and the same gifts she gave me when she was physically alive are still available to me through her spirit. In some ways, those "spirit gifts" are stronger, because they are contained and undiluted within me.
When the days get unbearably hard, when I think of all this wonderful young women missed by not getting to live her life out, I try to remember to focus on the present child, the one inside me. I try to integrate her gifts into my life, sometimes seeing through her eyes, thinking from her heart and mind. But we do have one companion on this lonely journey our child who died. I think there is never a moment in the day when a part of me in not connected to my daughter Kelly, to our years together and to our present relationship. Our journey through grief is a good-bye to their spirits and to the essence of their beings. My daughter lives inside me now, and the same gifts she gave me when she was physically alive are still available to me through her spirit. In some ways, those "spirit gifts" are stronger, because they are contained and undiluted within me. Catherine Reeve:))
This is so true to me I must focus on this to help me with Max, I don't know how long he as weeks, months,
He is coping well with this and say's to me THIS IS LIFE the good and the bad, this is what life is about.
Is it???
Love ,Hugs, Mary