I lost my brother to suicide almost 1 year ago. I read My Son, My Son, but this is about the loss of a child, but you might find it helpful. I also read one written by a wife who lost her husband. I can't remember the name, but I got it form the local library. I will look it up and get back to you. I am so sorry for your loss and know that talking about it is the best thing in my experience. You may be surprised at the number of people out there who have lost a loved one to suicide.