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[Brenda Taylors Mom]

Wow, it's not even February and I feel Taylor's birthday quickly coming up in April. So weepy. I hate this, I know it will probably always be this way, but I hate it. He would have been 20 years old !! Lived 14 years, and would have been 20.. how much does that suck... A LOT !!!! Just letting it out here, to the only people who really understand.

[MARTHA(CANDI'S AUNT)]

BRENDA,
  i'll keep you in my thought's & prayers. i hate birthdays & holidays also. i did have KARLIE here with me to keep my mind occupied but  she's been back with BECCA for a week today.
so i've been depressed since she went home...

sending hug's,
martha

[WendyRN]

Sorry, Brenda, that you're feeling so down.  It's a long road to April and I hope you find a way to fit some peaceful days in along the way.  I hope Taylor can help you hang onto your wonderful memories when you feel overwhelmed by his loss. 

This was my 3rd Christmas without Keith and, for some reason, it just devastated me more than the year before.  There is just this sense of hopelessness that has come over me in the last many months. 

Why do we have to suffer like this?  What possible good could come from it?  Why do OUR kids not have the opportunity to grow into old men, old women? 

Wendy, Keith's mom

[Brenda Taylors Mom]

(((((((((((Wendy and Martha)))))))))))))  Wendy, I will never understand it. I always think why not me and leave him here to grow up? Love you both, Brenda

[ytters-mom]

Brenda i have had the same thought many time  trying to bargin with God to say i would take Ytters place and let him live his life,  I would give my life freely to have him back. 

[Barbara]

Brenda,,,,That does suck ALOT....Thinking of you and Taylor....
Barbara (Patrick's mom)

[Debh]

Brenda I am sorry your having hard times and missing Taylor. I find its not the date that bothers me as much as the memories of that day. Holding onto the good memories that bring those smiles seems to make each year softer.

Thinking of you
Love Deb

[Brenda Taylors Mom]

Thank you all so much , my "family" I love you all.

[Terry]

I can relate, dear Bren as all of my dates start in November and end in February. All my babies. Jeff's 7 years was Jan.12th and his birthday is Feb. 19th.

I can already feel Spring coming. I know. Just a little too soon, eh? But, my least favorite season as everything that had died, comes back to life....except my babies.

Thoughts of you and your baby doll, Tay and all of my love. And, a huge hug...(((((((((( BREN ))))))))))

Terry

[Annie1973]

My Dear Brenda,
I have said before but maybe it bears repeating...if it took losing my Dan to meet and become close to you, I can say "okay" and instead of screaming and crying and hating all the world, I can love you and be grateful for this chance to know you.
I do exactly that every single day.
Saying Dan and Taylor outloud and knowing they both are a part of us forever.

Much love,
Annie (Dans mom)

[Brenda Taylors Mom]

OH ((((((( Annie)))))) You are a dear sweet friend and I love you too, I really do.
SAYING DAN AND TAYLOR OUT LOUD RIGHT NOW TOO ..... they are friends now too. Love you Brenda

[Dena]

Brenda,

I am thinking of you. Like Taylor, Josh was 14 too. It is hard to imagine our boys as grown and it hurts.  Josh would turn 26 this August. 

Please take good care of you - these months take so much out of us.

Saying Taylor's name out loud along with Josh's.

Love,
Dena, Josh's Mom

[MelissaCharliesMom]

Brenda, I have not been on much lately, but wanted you to know you are never far from my thoughts. None of you are!Sending strength and peace to get you through yet another difficult month.

[Brenda Taylors Mom]

(((((((((((( Melissa Dena Terry Deb ))))))))))))) I find I am breaking down crying more, even in public, I always make sure I have my sunglasses handy