MelissaCharliesMom
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« on: November 18, 2009, 07:15:10 PM » |
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Thanks to all of you for all of your support during what would have been Charlies 16th bday, Emmas 6th bday and the highly anticipated approaching 1st bday of our Sophia Baby. It is hard to imagine Charlie at 16....how I wish I didnt have to imagine it. The good news is we got through Emmas bowling/bounce house party with the entire family and some school friends in attendance and she had the "BEST bday ever Mom!!!"
The 16th, Charlies Bday was a very, very difficult day. It brought a bit of warmth when I got to the cemetery with balloons that early afternoon and saw others had been there already. Some balloons came from other family members, but the others that were there and the flowers..Im not sure where they came from. I only know that it is so nice to know he is not forgotten by others!!!
I went today, to the cemetery, whispered my love and wishes into the wind and then cut the balloons loose. I watched until I couldnt see them anymore. Funny thing is, they all flew away except the one from us that said "we love you" on it...that one is still hung up on a tree across the road from Charlies stone. A sign? Maybe.
So, now it is time to look forward. Forward, to Sophies 1st bday and Thanksgiving. Im squaring my shoulders, chin up, gritting my teeth and powering forward, ever forward....it is all I can do.
So, weve made it through, made it through another bad day, another bday without him, Emmas bday without him and now we move forward towards more bad days, I can only hope we can do whatever possible to make these hard days ahead bearable and hope for some "not so bad" days in between. Thinking of all of you and sending hugs and thanks for helping me get through another horrible time.
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