I want to die

[KathrynAnne]

I see no reason to continue. The pain is unbearable. Must stop this.

[Terry]

Hi Kathryn,

I'm sorry you're in so much pain. I don't know 'you' but I do know 'pain' and this time of the year, with the Holidays already on top of us, is just not a good time to be alone, feeling the way you're feeling.

No friends or family around you can visit? How about a neighborhood restaurant where there's other people? Have you searched out 'like' message boards on the internet? There are probably many and this time of the year I would think that they would be very active. Why don't you give it a try and let me know.

My computer stays on and I'll be checking back to see how you're doing.

I know it feels like you are, but you are not alone.

Big hug...Terry

[grainofsand]

Kathryn~

When someone is in so much pain, it is impossible to look beyond the pain to see what is on the other side of it.
So don't come down on yourself for not being able to get through this without some help or some time.
The pain tells you that this is how life will be for  you forever, but it is a LIE.
What ever the reason is that lead you to this despair...I want you to know there is Hope.

Just know that the way things might be today....will not be the way they are in your tomorrows.
YOU matter...... you have a purpose and that is why you are here.....and if you leave it....you will short change us all of your presence and your being and what you are here for.
Because of that, I selfishly ask you to talk to me before you give up.

If you want to talk or cry with someone...my shoulders are here for you.

I sent you a PM (personal message)...
Look to the top right of this web page where it says :
     Hey, KatherynAnne, you have 1 messages, 1 are new.
Then just click on your blue word 'messages' and it will bring you to your messages.

Hang on Kathryn...

Grainofsand

[Luvinmike]

Dear Kathryn;
Hello. I wasn't sure what I could say, so I am saying- I care. I care very much about the pain you feel because I think many of us feel that way sometimes.
I know when I am trapped in despair I go outside and I walk. I might go to the same track at a school and just walk the track round and round- no thinking needed. I sometimes find a path in the woods. I also try to take a shower and start over- lots of crying in the shower usually. But- once i have started my day over I usually feel a little stronger. I write in a journal and i joined a knitting group at a local knitting store. It turned out to be a lot of fun. Trying something new, even just take a different drive to work, can build up your confidence. Anyways, thinking of you.
 Keep going with your Resilience! You can do it!
Terri

[sevenofwands]

Kathryn:

I echo absolutely GrainofSand's post. What she says is so true-- the pain telling you it will always be like this.  I can fully assure you it will NOT.  Please keep posting and writing, and ask questions, and if we can be of any help.  It all seems so desperate.  The trauma of divorce is right up there at the top of the ist with the most stressful life events.  It is horrible.

Again I just hope you can find some support there in real life, someone to reach out to.  Support is important, and there are places to turn to.

Also, please feel free to PM me, if you so wish.  I am probably in a different time zone, but I will I promise anwer your messages. 

I wish you peace and strength of mind in this grief-stricken time.
Seven