Mike would have been 40 today....

[cgpmsp]

Well today was supposed to be a fun day planning the big 40 but I can't do that for him.  Now the terrible time for me starts it is coming up on the 2 year mark (10-13)  I still wake up everyday waiting to tell him something and then I do but have no one to answer me...... I hate that alone feeling.....I still go to bed everynight with the shirt that he had on that day it still smells like him maybe that crazy I don't know but it makes me feel good and even if I have learned nothing else on this journey I have learned that I now do the things that make me happy and don't worry about what others will think....I am sure all of you know what I mean.

I only hope that I am raising our daughter the way he would have wanted boy does she act just like him....I see him in her all the time.....she is the reason that I get moving everyday since this happened if it wasn't for her who knows where I would be right now.   Anyway we are going to go out to dinner tonight just like we always have done on birthdays.....    Crissy

[rita-grammy]

I am so sorry for your loss... I know birthdays and angel days can be very difficult ..I also start feeling the loss around the 22nd of very month.. I isolate ...my daughter passed away July 22nd ...I think all of us have learned that now that we have walked this journey the small things no longer matter and we have to do what is best for us...not worry what others think or say....I always tell people I have to do what is best for me...its how I survive .....if I want to stay in bed all day and cry I do....the only person who is going to take care of me is me.....thinking of you and your Mike on his birthday.....

Rita

[browneyedgirl]

I am so sorry for your loss.

I'm sure that you are doing a wonderful job of raising your daughter. 

Happy Birthday, Mike...

((Hugs))

[Luvinmike]

Dear Chrissy;
My heart aches for you. I am sorry your Mike feels out of reach sometimes, keep holding onto the love as you move forward. It is so hard to want to change this and we cannot. At least I know I struggle with that- I prefer pain that I can do something about. This can be so challenging. Thinking of you as you pass this special b-day. Sending you strength and a shared understanding. I hope you write some more when you can. Terri

[tsurandy]

Crissy, I am so very sorry for the loss of your Mike!  My thoughts and prayers are with you on this very special day.

[georgiapeaches]

Happy Heavenly Birthday Mike.
((((hugs)))) to you Chrissy on this hard day.

georgia.

[MISSINGYOU]

Happy birthday Mike. Crissy you are doing a great job, I am sure of it.