Yesterday I got a letter from the Rocky Mountain Lions Eye Bank a couple of days ago. My brother was able to donate his corneas, one went to a 36 yr old man and the other went to a 38 yr old man. I suppose that I should be happy that someone is now able to see better because of my brother. However, it is hard for me to be happy. I want my brother here, in one piece. I took some of his ashes from my parents house today. My mom does fused glass necklaces and I am hoping to have her help me incorporate the ashes into a piece of jewelry. I'm sure that Boz would think that is funny, he's an accessory now.
I have been trying to just plug along, doing things that make me feel a little better. I had talked in a previous post about going to Florida w/ my daughter for Christmas but now I realize that would be selfish on my part. We should be with family during the holidays. I suppose that I am looking for a way to run away from my feelings. I decided to just plan on going to Florida for my daughter's birthday. We can't really afford it and I know that there are so many other things that I should be saving up for (our first house, school, emergency $, etc..) but I just want something to look forward to. Even is it something silly like going to Seaworld. I keep telling myself that life is short, you only get to do it once so you might as well do things that you haven't gotten a chance to do yet. Plus it is also something for my daughter to look forward to as well.
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