My Beautfil Mother left me one year ago!

[tsurandy]

I am writing this during the early morning hours of September 17th it is the time of death for my beautiful mother, one year ago.  The year has been one of continuous change, while trying to keep things the same!  I miss Mama every second of everyday!   I have as most of you know moved to the house in West Texas that we closed on a week before Mama was hospitalized, and I have gone into business for myself.   I have until January to decide if I will return to my job in the Dallas area, I really feel at peace here at home with our dogs, and I go to the cemetery often.  Mama would be happy I am not alone, my brother moved with me (he was just divorced when Mama passed) and his 19 year old son moved out to go to college.  This forum has been a great source of comfort for me, though I read more often than I post!)  Can I say things have gotten easier or that the pain has lessened? NO!!  I will always miss my wonderful Mama; I will always grieve for her.  I do accept that I have to continue to live and to finish my journey on earth, and then I will see her again.  I love you sweet Mama!

[SoCal2010]

It's only been 2 months for me without my Mom and I can't imagine a whole year. It feels so strange not to be able to talk to her.

That's nice that you're staying in the house. I met someone else online who bought a home with her Mom and unfortunately her Mom passed away two days after they moved into the house. Later that year, she ended up losing the house because she lost her job. It still pains her years later that she lost the house. It's good you are in a position of choice instead of being forced to do something.

It sounds like you had a special relationship with your Mom, so hopefully that gives you strength.

(((hugs)))

[georgiapeaches]

Dear Randall,
How far you've come, you do sound at peace in your home. I know how you feel , my mom will be gone one year this November. I have been back to her house only once and now its up for sale, very hard to live with that but to many siblings to keep it. My heart goes out to you, I hope you have peace and comfort on this day of rememberance, and beautiful memories.

georgia.

[Luvinmike]

Dear Randall;
Thinking of you...and wish you peaceful good memories. Your Mama is proud of you I bet.
Terri

[tsurandy]

Thanks for the thoughts!  Life for each of us is a struggle, the loss of our loved ones compounds that struggle.  I am grateful for the years I had Mama live with me, she is the reason that I can continue the journey.  I often see people out and about and wonder……..are they masking their own pain?  Have they experienced the horrific grief of losing someone who made their life complete.  We never know who is hiding their own grief from the world!