So empty and alone

[Gail08]

I had a very rough night last night.  I lay in my bed crying.  I just felt so empty, alone, and was missing my sister SO MUCH.  I just never thought I would have to live life without her and now that I am having to it just hurts SO MUCH.  She was my life, my best friend.  I am just having a very hard time getting a handle on things.  Just when I think I am getting a slight grip I just lose it.  How do I get a grip and keep that grip?

[Jeanneb]

((((GAIL)))))

I think you have asked the million dollar question..."How do I get a grip and keep that grip?"

From my walk on this journey... well... I don't think you do.  I think we continue to move forward, inch by inch, moment by moment.  For the most part it does get softer walking this journey but there are just times it takes our breath away. 

I've been finding myself everyday this week just being overwhelmed for a brief time with the blues... the crying coming out of left field.  I just give in and let myself cry for a bit, then I find something to take my mind away.  I'm finding it difficult to come here, sometimes it is overwhelming to read, hearing the pain and not being able to find the words.

This isn't just a saying for me, it is how I make it through.... deep breaths and baby steps.

Hold on tight,
Jeanne
Philip's mom forever
Bruce's sister