Loss of my older brother.

[Hallowt]

Huge thanks for all the kind words and support....

I miss him so much.

My passed away in 2004, dad in 2007......and Eddie in 2008.

I am the last of my original family line....

It can get so lonely sometimes....

[georgiapeaches]

your not alone here. I lost my father in 99 my husband last april and then my mother last November so I really feel alone, I feel like all I have left is my kids, if it wasnt for this site I would feel completely alone, I am greatful for eveyone here, and I hope that you feel comfortable enough to come back and talk whenever you need to, you are always welcome. so sorry for your loss.

georgia.

[NickyG]

Hallowt-
I am so incredibly sorry for the loss of your brother.  I lost my brother on memorial day last year in a kayaking accident.  even though our situations are not the same, i feel your pain immensely.  the hurt and sorrow completely consume you.  i'm not one for telling people that they should see a professional, especially if theyre not ready, but i have been seeing a therapist for almost 7 months now, and i truly feel i have come a long way.  i still hurt, i still cry, i still wonder why, or what i could have done (if anything) to change the outcome, but i have also had someone outside of my family and friends to talk to.  which quite frankly can be very therapeutic.  i truly wish you all the best.  I'll be in touch.
~Nicky

[Hallowt]

Hugs....

[BabyDoll]

Hi Hallowt,
I'm so sorry for your loss.  I just lost my brother on May 3rd; he was one year older and my only sibling.  He had a heart attack at age 39.  He would have been 40 on June 16.  My parents are still living, thankfully.

I know how hard it is to "move on".  Right now, I feel as if I can't just "move on".  I do have young children that keep me busy; which I guess is a good thing. 
Anyway, I really don't know what else to say, but I have been told that it is good to keep talking to people and sharing about your brother.  They say it helps....we'll see.
Thanks for sharing the great photos and stories of your brother.  He sounds like he was a great guy!

[Luvinmike]

Dear Babydoll;
I am thinking of you and hope you are able to have some peace for yourself today. You wrote that your brother was always laughing, my husband who I am missing was always laughing too. It is really hard to miss our loved ones so much. I try to focus on that laughter as a way to feel that we did enjoy our time together- and that grief is about wishing for one more moment to be like it was.
I know things change, and I know you will do okay with your kids and parents, but it truly is painful and challenging to miss someone so much.
Just wanted to reply and let you know I am thinking of you and so is everyone on this site.
Take care and write again.
Terri

[Hallowt]

Thank you......

My prayers are with each of you.

I will always hold the memories of my brother in my heart.

He use to do the Santa thing each Christmas.  He carried on a tradition that my father use to do.

I miss my family.

I try to play the 'strong' one, but I feel like sometimes my life isn't what it should have been, or could be... 

[BigSis]

Dear Babydoll

We understand your pain. I lost my best friend and brother at age 48 on Dec 12 in 2008. We were so close that we used to finish each other's sentences.  It is so unfair that these wonderful people are taken away well before their prime. There is such an ache in your heart that is so deep. I look at my dear brother's picture and talk to him every night before I go to sleep. They live in our hearts and we can never forget them. The healing is very slow and no one really understands.  Hope they are at peace. 

Take care

BigSis